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Tuesday, February 22, 2011, 1:11 AM
22 February 2011
Chestal oh Chestal,I wonder if I fall in love with you?hahahahaha
just joking la,quite random leh coz I just too bored or just too lonely at the momment.......
You never knows what will happen in the future.......
But currently i din fall in love with you but just LOVE die you,muahahahaha.....
The time now is 1.15am and I have a 8am class later but I feel like not sleeping now.Too many thoughts came upon me and I really do not know what can I do.Is so suffering you know....
Fine,let's put it this way,I admit that I did felt lonely at this moment.Watching all my friends one by one coupling and one by one leaving me.Do you know that I feel so lifeless...
Living at Kampar is a big struggle for me.I wonder why did I pick this course or come here.Maybe I was too rush to decide and saw 2 of my best buddies came here and followed as well..
Things are changing very fast.Some ppl change from bad to good and vice versa.....
And in blink of an eye,I have been living here for almost 1 year,do you know how fast is it?Let's see did I enjoy my life here?
I guess a big NO to be exact,do you see I post anything extraordinary,happy,laughable,great photos and etc?NOPE
I sat down here and think about what had I gone through here and I found out that I was rather wasting my time here.Studying on a course which I do not interested on and now going to look for a job in this field and this is always a joke to me.
MY dream is to be a PR,managing an event,using my power of speeches,delivering every single points and ideas to my customers and when i got capitals,I will spend in investments or doing business.I never thought of any jobs except this .
I am sitting again and think a serious matter of mine happening in sometime.In Form 6,I complained about my classmates of being too noisy,noisy in term of lame and now I am complaining my coursemates who are being childish.Is this how I looked like when I was a year younger?When times to play,you play and when you have to be serious,you serious but not mixing all of it.It is just wasting of time.
Another matter which is rather private and very complicated,I have to pull out and not to discuss here but just sighing here.
Arhhh,life is so so so boring,what is my aim in my life?
I ask myself about millions of time but still no answer is found.
I ask again whether I want to be a entertainment star or a successful businessman,I m just dreaming on my head whether I can achieve any.
I can't deny that I want to earn money and who does not?I want to have a lot of money in many reasons.The main aspect is because when I was small,I always being look down by others including some of my relatives.Yes,I admit that I had a difficult life before,have to rely on tin foods,borrowing moneys from people,working until late at night even I have to study in the morning.The main point is that we never give up,we are living to have a normal family and not to show off.Do you know that when we were young,we catch up thing very fast,and what we don't like the most is the things we wanted to so much but we cannot afford it.Sitting at the corner,looking at your friend having the item but you can't play it and even being teased.
That's something which I remember so much and that is why I wanted to be rich so much in future.I just want my parents to have a better living.I don't want them to have the same faith as me.Even though I am not good in studies but I always work smart,learn everything possible which I think is useful.I never stop learning until the last breathe of mine.I just hope that I can give a good life and seek the best way to survive.I knew my small sis can achieve excellency in her studies and I rather sacrifice my studies for her because I knew I am a idiot.
Arh,,Why did I mention so much about my past?Isn't a great story?hope to see you to leave a comment on this.
I just want to be an average man who is able to give happiness to my family and the people around me~~
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