Master Of All Wild-X, a.k.a Smith Shim

7th January 2012

2012-01-07T01:41:00.002+08:00

Spend the whole day doing nothing on Friday.Just play tetris battle whole day and refreshing the facebook to see friend's update.So,today my elder sister suggested to shop for CNY clothes at Mid Valley.Why am I not born as a girl because if I am,I am sure that I am darn happy and excited.Boys usually don't shops with mother or sister or worst to come,both.

For me,I usually walk around myself with my younger sister because you know,my mom and elder sister do not wear like us de teenagers.I rather walk myself see stuffs my own and buy things along with my younger sister.But the problem is that,tomorrow she is going out with her friends too and I am the only one left.

I really dunno what should I write now.Let's talk something interesting.

Relationship

So,are you in a relationship?

I am single and available.Well,there are many types of people.There are:-

1.People who prefers single
2.People who prefers to focus on their job and academic first
3.People who wants to be in relationship but unable too
4.People who always in relationship
5.People who flirts a lot

Sometimes,relationship can't be push and is just matter of time.For me,I would like to have one but at the same time, I would not.I saw many of my friends from single become couple and enjoying their sweet moment so much.24hours on the phone and that makes me jealous so much.They can have someone to care and love them when they are further away from the family.That's what I feel.

At the same time,I don't feel to have one because of many reasons.I just talk about a few.I saw one of my friend(female) who got into relationship who requested the bf to msg or call her day and night.Is that necessary?Is like reporting to the sergeant.For me,if you don't trust your boyfriend,why are you together?One or few days went missing,I think it will be better.Won't you be bored chatting to each other everyday?It is just asking the same questions each day.If you are not to talk for day,at least you have more things to chat when meet or msg or whatever.

Maybe my thoughts are wrong but at least give some space to each other.If you knew each other too much,it will be lesser things to do for sure.But I agree that during the beginning stage,more communication are needed,so after that,we should make the tempo slower so that we wont get bored so quickly.

6th January 2012

2012-01-06T00:02:00.003+08:00

I'm back with the topic flirting as promise.So,what is flirting?

According to wikipedia, Flirting (or coquetry) is a playful romantic or sexual overture by one person to another subtly indicating an interest in a deeper relationship with the other person, and can involve verbal communication as well as body language. A female flirt, especially a young one, is sometimes called a coquette; but when a man flirts with a woman it is sometimes referred to as gallantry or chivalry.

So,everybody on the teenage ages will be able to flirt naturally.So,what's the big deal regarding to this topic.Yes,is undeniable that flirting is one of the process to go in to a relationship and it is a MUST to do it to develop a better understanding between both parties.

The problem I want to highlight here is that some has flirt overly and making another people in the circle end up hurt.

Yes,I know that everyone can flirt more than one person but the problem is that if you have found the right person,why the heck you are still flirting with the other person?I really don't understand what's the problem that you having.I know, everyone will said that "we suppose to pick the best among them so that we won't make the wrong choice"

Yes,i do get what you try to say but sometimes I just can't understand it.If you have or had found the special one,please stop the nonsense to flirt,you don't know that some people will get angry even as you had pick him.You even hurt few persons at the same time.

I just dislike those who overly flirt.Really want to get a hammer and had a whack on you.

4th January 2012

2012-01-04T01:37:00.002+08:00

I am still not dead at this date.No more D-day and I can't die from this awful world.So much hatred,so much worries,so much stress and so much problems that make you blow out of your mind.

I just got the mood to blog 2nd one in just 3 days,how awesome is that huh?
Maybe I have been thinking a lot this few days.Wondering on this planet and craving for loneliness.I just got the feeling that this blog is the safest place to blog about anything I want to express and somehow I feel like restrict the access to some or maybe no people?LOL

Yes,I am 22 years old guy who like to express and say anything which I found interesting.However,some people on my fb,they will prefer to criticize me and say a lot of bad things about me.I really hope that I would not need to tell the world what I'm doing but my case is differ from your case.

At least you have a few good friends or besties around you.For guys,we rarely bring up that we are not happy because I guess that they will think that it is not MAN to tell people on what they are sad about.the only chances they will bring up the situation are to those who he/she think close to him.Example:-family,superb best friend,a girl who they think they trust,girlfriend.

Not every guy you think is very Man but they are just acting behind the wall.Yes I do agree with some people that some guys are jerk in picking up a girlfriend.So many criteria about a girlfriend but that are the same goes to the girls.

I got a friend who is not handsome but is able to flirt with all girls no matter how.His sweet talks are amazingly awesome.Which ever girl he met,I ensure you that the girl just magnetize to him.Yes,I am not as good as him or you can say that maybe I am only 10% of him.I prefer to do the old school way which is find a right girl and is suitable for me.I don't need you to be so trendy,fully make-up and more.

What I need is someone who understands me,scold me,advice me and Love me unlike anybody else.But to find a girl to accept you is hard and even if I found her,it doesn't mean that I love her either.Sometimes,you really have to believe in fate.Most of my friend ran into their another part and living me behind.I didn't mean to rush for a girlfriend because I know to find a good girlfriend is hard but sometimes,it just not like that.Whenever you see your friends cuddling with each other,you wonder that they are so happy and lovely.All you wanted is someone to care you,listen to you,be their ears,and scold them when necessary.

That's y many people want to fall in love to experience the love from someone.People like me who study away from homes,even more needed some love out there when they can't get themselves a family warmness.We try to search it beneath the area and away from there.

Not every matters the guy will share with you,I believe that goes the same with the girls.For me,I feel that is boring to let the same people to listen whatever stories you are been through and that's y you find other people.Someone who u trust even more which is your another part...

I think I round and round my blog with nonsense but I like the way it is = 0

Who don't want to find someone who care them and love them?Just fucking tell me?Please don't mention those nun and sami please....

I think will post another in this few days regarding to flirting,haha

Stay tune

2nd January 2012

2012-01-02T06:34:00.003+08:00

Good morning people,it is 6.30am now and I am awake.It just feels like going back to secondary school time where we have to wake up at this early morning and prepare to go school.After 3 months of dumping this blog,here I am again to blog.Well,was inspired by a friend who blog lately.

Ok,here we go.2012,what is my resolution?
There are many things I want to do this year if I have the chance.Everyone knows that 2012 is a famous movie and also stated inside the Bible where it is considered as the Doom's Day.Hopefully I can do as much as possible before the world really ends.Here goes the top 10 of my list....

10.Be a star
If you are my close friend,I guess that you know that I am good at acting,and really sings a lot(even I can't vomit out the chinese words).Well,it has been a dream for me to stand on the stage to perform in front of people.However,Malaysia just no luck on this sector where they only focus on Malays and not Chinese.Even there is,I can't see chinese to be able to improve in this sector unless you further your career outside of Malaysia.That's why,I rank this the last because I guess that it is not so important now and focus on my studies.

9.Famous in Utar
Another awkward dream of mine.Actually,I don't need to be so famous in the university because in IT faculty,i guess that I am already famous enough not because of my studies but considered one of the most Handsome,xD.Just that,I just need to join more events to let everyone knows that Smith Shim is here....

8.Meet my brothers
Yea,another year passed just in a blink of an eye.Last year,we didn't really catch up due to busy-ness in university and some who studied abroad.Hope that,this coming Saturday,I can meet with you guys and a great session ahead....

7.Earn extra pocket money
Everyone wants extra pocket money because people never stop from spending everyday.For me,coming from a so so family is not a bad thing.Instead,I can learn a lot from here.Learn how to survive daily,do daily stuffs,cooking,human's path,learn to see people face,how to see which is friends and who is not,and bla bla bla.Even i complained I don't have enough money,I still find it satisfactory and try to earn my money myself without my parents help(preferable).From my point of view,there are rich people who look down on us who is poor.You know who they are,just that we don't want to sound them up.That's why you can success from here because you have been going through more then them.If we are living in de jungle,I guess they die first then our turn to die.But me,I sure survive la,coz I am a scout who likes to do outdoor activities and do a lot of things where everyone just dunno who am I and what I am capable of,shiiii!!!!!!

Stop grandma stories and back to earn money.ok,Hopefully my investment plans will be more successful on next year onwards and earn even more money.Really dislike to use my mom money.Even I am earning without my mom's knowledge,I felt proud on my own way to get income.hehe

6.Meet more friends
I like to socialize and meet more people in future.Here,I can expand my networking and make more new friends.It is not a bad thing because at least we can know what is other doing which is differ from us and we exchange knowledge with them.

5.Mantain my physical and mentally outwork
Because I am hyperly active,is natural for me to work out myself.Even I don't have 6 packs,I still enjoy my life.Who needs a 6 packs if they just know to play those gym thing but not other sports?I am 10 times stronger and better than you.Don't believe,try me on whatever sports,I think I can easily win you.Proud-nya~~
Well,can say that I am a naturally born athlete and my favorites of all will be Football and Badminton.Even my badminton is not that good as those who play like u see in television,but for a amateur,I am good.I just lack of training which you guys play each days.I just learn all this skills myself and without a coach,so dont compare me with those pros,I considered Geng jor.

For football,I think I am born to play the game.I die also wear a jersey to heaven,haha.I think if I get a good team,I will be invisible maybe you see me in the national team.My goalkeeping skills are fantastic just like you saw in EPL.I really hope some scout spot me out and bring me to England = (

4.Getting a new phone
It just mater of time I will be switching phone.S2,S3 Iphone?Dunno wei,money got but just dunno want to spend a not and if I spent,I am poor again.Wait I have more money first because no money no talk and my mom sure kills me if I changing phone now because CNY is here and I spend big?

3.Fuck the gays
You know how much I dislike gays because gays really irritate me.TA DE MOTHER,very gay you know.I know you all are laughing but that sucks.When the same sex likes you,flirting you or doing things for you,is disgusting.Want flirt,dont flirt me.I just dunno why I am so attractive to them?I don't have 6 packs,just a thin guy.All those gay come to me play shit meh?Plus guy with guy,walao i also dun wan to talk about it.Damn geli,when you see both of them holding hands.Really want to use a mabauDoi lup them and use a stick to bok them.If your mom,give a bird to you,use it wise la.wasai~~

2.Survive at the top-flight
Another year to survive.I really dislike IT leh,all those programming coding is killing me and my interests is definitely not here.Can't really give up now,because I am half way through this course is a must again to go through this.Even my result TAK CANTIK,but I think I did a better job as I am able to stand this long...Work Hard Smith <3

1.Getting a girlfriend
This is a dream of every guys and even myself of coz.I say many times,I am not gay.Even if I am gay,do i look gay?Babi.I am normal guy who like girls and will in a dreamland whenever a pretty girl pass by.Getting a girlfriend is easy but getting a good girlfriend is HARD.Most of them see money,car,money,car,house,house,credit card bla bla bla.Nowadays,girls are realistic and you must have enough to survive.No money,dump you lo~~What else can she do,give money to u?Give car to you?Come on,as a guy you will also lose face man.So,is better not to do so~~

To be able to find a girlfriend who can tolerate with my condition,I bet that out of 50 girls,you can find only 2.So,to find a good girlfriend,I guess it will be near future and now,eat jagung lo.
Even you found a girl you like,it doesn't mean she like you.Even she likes you,she might be realistic.And somehow,some of them may wore few faces,having few boyfriends in one shot.Don't be so playful la,you see,if one of the guys are like me,so loyal,you sure hurt him and tackle their confidence down.I am the example and not really confidence to make a move.Is not good to play around when someone is serious with you.If you don't like him,tell him.If he has no chance tell him.Don't fish him and make him felt deeper to you.Is no good and it will be a sin to you,I ensure you that!!!!!

OK,after listing all this,is time to say bye bye~~

19th October 2011

2011-10-19T01:38:00.002+08:00

I think every year of mine also I will update this important day which is my birthday.Woke up by a bunch of friends who celebrate my burfday on 12am today.Appreciate their efforts for celebrating for me but 2 cakes are too much for me,eat till me so full....

Actually this year,din feel much of the celebrating environment.Macam dun have the Mood de......

Maybe see a lot people ady couple and just left me alone.Being lonely for 21years ady,i so satt bai~~

What i wish for this year is that,I can earn back the loss for the RM900 of investment and my studies will improve more and more....

I love you guys = )

13th October 2011

2011-10-13T02:49:00.003+08:00

It has been another long long time that I did not update my this blog.Actually is one of my closest who ask me to update this dusty blog.I was not aware that it has been another half year gone and now is the middle of month October.Y2S1 had passed and I passed all my subjects slightly above average.I was aiming to score 3 and above but that just won't happen.Quite disappointed on what I achieved but I am willing to work harder next sem.It is still a long road ahead....

Actually I am so so so so headache about my financial status now.I took part on an investment plan that promise me luxurious profits.In the middle of the investment,everything works fine until my partner created a big havoc for me losing my trust from my head.So I am stuck with a losses just because of that.I dunno some FOOL is really a FOOL.If you are talking bad about somebody or maybe some harsh words thrown on to them,can your FUCKING brain tell what've I said?You are so stupid until I really do not know how to say a single sentence.....

My previous sem I was unable to get the PTPTN loan and I was barely able to support myself during my y2 sem 1.OK,I passed the subjects and thought that I can breathe a bit but my friend told me that short sem NO LOAN. I was like huh? I just remember the purpose on why I invested because is to support the Y2S2 fees.Now I am stuck with the fees and required to get RM2500 to pay my fees.Now my investment collapse and I really dunno what to do...

My buddy who is having intern now,lend Rm400 from me and he did have Rm16000 of loan.I wonder how he spend until a single cent also TAK ADA and needly to owe me money.Asking for the money and he said he can't paid me until December.I was like WTF?You owe me since the beginning of the year and YOU STILL CANT PAY?haiz,I really have no idea...

I really do not want to ask a single penny from my mom coz I know I just can't.I just hope that I have a road for me to walk.Maybe hitting a lottery but i dun think i have a chance...

Who can just help me? = (

I wonder whether did I make the right choice to study for a degree.Everything seems so not FINE to me.Hardly cope with the coursemates who gave me lots of troublesome,communication problems.What i dislike most is that they always give me LAST MINUTE work....

Just leave that alone,try hard to think about it...

Ok,this is the picture I took just now,HAHA

Thx for reading my blog....

24 May 2011

2011-05-24T01:00:00.002+08:00

Yesterday,Manu was crowned Champ19ns for the 19th time.Glad to hear that and hope they will do the same on this Saturday.

I had a great badminton game with Khai Soong,Pei Yow and Yew Son this afternoon.It has been a long long time that we did not meet up and have good games.We were very enjoyed and lots of lots of laughter among us.The best part was Khai Soong was summoned for picking phone during driving.The police asked,tak mahu tolong?and my fren replied tak mahu,what is he thinking.Then only he realized the tolong means~~

Right now,
Kinda emo now because thinking back lots of memorable memories which have ups and downs.My sem break is going to end soon and i have less than 6days to live in KL and i would like to meet somebody before I leave but it seems to be impossible.You know,when u wanted to meet someone and you knew that there is no chance that u can meet her,that's SAD.

Thinking it,I felt like I am missing her so much.....
I think we have not been seeing each other for more than a year.I dunno whether she misses me a not,lol.

Stop day dreaming,who you think you are?
Do you think you valued something on her?
Nonsense!!!!

7th April 2011

2011-04-07T11:26:00.003+08:00

Just finish my moral campaign,having a lots of fun in acting and much.Finish my busiest week and left with one more assignment and ready to go for my FINALS again.Well,time really does not wait for you,1 year has passed and well,I 'm still here.Eventhough there is ups and downs,just remember to breathe and you will be able to handle it~~

6th February 2011

2011-03-06T02:28:00.002+08:00

I M here again and to complain.Recently, my brain is cracked with stress and pressure.Assignments,Mid terms kill me.And I took the wrong path in order to release my stress.
Well,I admit I am a bad boy now!!!!!!!!!Why does it has to end up like that?I never thot I will take this road but I really took it.But it is just temporary la and hope that it does not affect me further.

I swear I will not continue it once the time passed.

I always wonder y I am unable to be better compares to others?
I wonder a lot....

I can't really find someone who I can really release.In fact there is one, but she is taken la,I mana boleh kacau dia
Later, Disturb ppl no good lo plus she is busy all the way,GOOD LUCK = )
Plz,dun think too much la,it is not the way u are thinking la.........

Maybe,I really have to start looking "the one" to care for me.hahahaha
But it is not easy to look for someone who is able to synchronize with u.
And it is just the matter of time............

Maybe,I try not to trust my friends so much because bad things happen to me twice in my life,how cruel is it to see that happen.........

If you are there,plz enlighten my day and show me some sign = )
Coz, if u dun show sign,how i solve it wo?
hahahaha

ok ok,good night lads and gentlemen

22 February 2011

2011-02-22T01:11:00.002+08:00

Chestal oh Chestal,I wonder if I fall in love with you?hahahahaha
just joking la,quite random leh coz I just too bored or just too lonely at the momment.......
You never knows what will happen in the future.......
But currently i din fall in love with you but just LOVE die you,muahahahaha.....

The time now is 1.15am and I have a 8am class later but I feel like not sleeping now.Too many thoughts came upon me and I really do not know what can I do.Is so suffering you know....

Fine,let's put it this way,I admit that I did felt lonely at this moment.Watching all my friends one by one coupling and one by one leaving me.Do you know that I feel so lifeless...

Living at Kampar is a big struggle for me.I wonder why did I pick this course or come here.Maybe I was too rush to decide and saw 2 of my best buddies came here and followed as well..

Things are changing very fast.Some ppl change from bad to good and vice versa.....

And in blink of an eye,I have been living here for almost 1 year,do you know how fast is it?Let's see did I enjoy my life here?

I guess a big NO to be exact,do you see I post anything extraordinary,happy,laughable,great photos and etc?NOPE

I sat down here and think about what had I gone through here and I found out that I was rather wasting my time here.Studying on a course which I do not interested on and now going to look for a job in this field and this is always a joke to me.

MY dream is to be a PR,managing an event,using my power of speeches,delivering every single points and ideas to my customers and when i got capitals,I will spend in investments or doing business.I never thought of any jobs except this .

I am sitting again and think a serious matter of mine happening in sometime.In Form 6,I complained about my classmates of being too noisy,noisy in term of lame and now I am complaining my coursemates who are being childish.Is this how I looked like when I was a year younger?When times to play,you play and when you have to be serious,you serious but not mixing all of it.It is just wasting of time.

Another matter which is rather private and very complicated,I have to pull out and not to discuss here but just sighing here.

Arhhh,life is so so so boring,what is my aim in my life?
I ask myself about millions of time but still no answer is found.
I ask again whether I want to be a entertainment star or a successful businessman,I m just dreaming on my head whether I can achieve any.

I can't deny that I want to earn money and who does not?I want to have a lot of money in many reasons.The main aspect is because when I was small,I always being look down by others including some of my relatives.Yes,I admit that I had a difficult life before,have to rely on tin foods,borrowing moneys from people,working until late at night even I have to study in the morning.The main point is that we never give up,we are living to have a normal family and not to show off.Do you know that when we were young,we catch up thing very fast,and what we don't like the most is the things we wanted to so much but we cannot afford it.Sitting at the corner,looking at your friend having the item but you can't play it and even being teased.

That's something which I remember so much and that is why I wanted to be rich so much in future.I just want my parents to have a better living.I don't want them to have the same faith as me.Even though I am not good in studies but I always work smart,learn everything possible which I think is useful.I never stop learning until the last breathe of mine.I just hope that I can give a good life and seek the best way to survive.I knew my small sis can achieve excellency in her studies and I rather sacrifice my studies for her because I knew I am a idiot.

Arh,,Why did I mention so much about my past?Isn't a great story?hope to see you to leave a comment on this.

I just want to be an average man who is able to give happiness to my family and the people around me~~

9 Feb 2011

2011-02-09T22:29:00.003+08:00

Happy burfday to everyone today because is Chor 7 which is Yan yue,all chinese burfday~~

Now kinda boring coz CNY is soon to finish and everything will back to normal.I guess everyone is having the same thought where this year has not much feel of CNY and everyone seems to be mood-less.Seriously,it is boring and less Ang Pau and lesser gambles.Maybe everyone has grown up and lazy to play so much,lol.....

I should have think of something nice to write here.Give me a minute....

Arh,got it......
My lecturer had told us that those who emo are the one who has low EQ.

But let me tell him,the one who said this is even worsen than emo....

30th January 2010

2011-01-30T22:09:00.002+08:00

This something which I find it quite true.Is a gathering or reunion that makes u all to meet back old friends and solidify our relationship.
But,how can you ignore it or din make an effort to join it?

You know that you all are very naive?It is not easy to have a time which suits everyone to join together ok.And most of us are in University which have different uni life style,some even went to abroad to study and they will find it hard to join us.Do you know that,even as a male,we still miss each other ok.Not we don't want to say it out but is Male style which do not speak something so disgusting...

There has been few times that you all ignore it and yet u still continuously ignore it.At least,u have to reply or comment just to let us know whether u are free or not.U just need to spend couple of minutes and that's all.

Because of this bloody attitude,you make us feel like not going to organize in future coz everytime,we only find it few ppl to attend....

Do you know that,we always expect everyone to attend and have a happy gathering?I just wish that everyone can meet at least once a YEAR.is that too much to be asked?

21st Jan 2011

2011-01-21T10:31:00.002+08:00

I realize that my post is quite boring sometimes.So I decided to say something which is more fun.
Many of you does not realize that there are many type of friends around you including fake and real.Some how,u just got to differentiate them.One a while,you will notice through their act and so.

I was a bit stubborn to notice it with quite some time,maybe because of I too trust them of whatever and it might been as well as emotional of me taking control.I have to know that I have to control it since it is a bad habit.I think sometimes,is better to hide from people then showing it to them.

What can we do is just smile whenever you are stress or in a bad situation,It helps me a lot.Take a deep breath and exhale it and soon,u release your anger.
LALALA~~~

What I learn is to release if necessary .Don't hold it or else it will drag you all along.

31st Dec 2010

2010-12-31T00:55:00.003+08:00

Is New Year eve today.I just spend the last 4 hours on buying my CNY shirts just now because the clothes price will be going up to 30% by next year,and that will cause a big burden to every low income family.So, my mom decided to buy it by this few days.

Even is the New Year Eve,I don't really enjoy it.Can be said that another miserable scenario happen on me.I just don't understand why does we have to fall in love.Alright,I know is ok to fall in love but for me,I always fall on the wrong time and wrong place.

It is saddening to find out that the person you court has been targeted by your own friend.I always watch a lot of dramas where the main character will always have to compete with their best friend for the girlfriend.And right now,I am in the situation.

I always thought that I should work harder,be sincere and that should be enough but somehow it is just not enough.First of all,I guess I don't know chinese wherelse my friend does.This has give him a lot of advantages like jokes,flirt stuffs,good things and so.How many things that you find it interesting or good when it is written in English?I can say that it is hardly to be found.

Well,I just know that I am loser ALWAYS. Since when I have successful?
You always heard that life has ups and downs but for me DOWNS are more to me and UPs are rare.

So,after some considerations,and some scolding my my true friend,I made a decision,a tough decision,which is letting her to be with him.I know I can't give her more joy compare to my friend,I know that I can't understand chinese words which is easily deliver via her,I know that I am always far apart from her,I know that my EMO-NESS will bring her more stress,I just know that my friend is a better choice to her ><

So,my dear friend,I trust you and so plz,fulfil the trust that I gave you.You know,I might be too random,wild,emo and sarcastic sometimes,but I always know what am I doing.It is just the way I can find laughter among you all and to release my tensions.Without my wildness,I can hardly live.

And I am telling you,if I found out that you are not treating her well or is playing her feelings,I'm sure to be the one who whack you up,I swear ok.

The emotion just drive me crazy and I know that those who know me,you never knew what I'm capable of....I am just another reborn of Albert Einstein...

11 December 2010

2010-12-11T23:07:00.003+08:00

I always thought that the fate is waiting so i just have wait patiently.So I met her a week ago through my friends,you see. I was having a BBQ session with my housemates where they had invited their moral group friends to come along,So I just join la since that we live under the same roof. Well, after BBQ session,we had another session outside which is the drink beer.So my friend's friend brought along a girl, not that short or tall,wearing specs,long hair and she came and joined us.So,for the first time I saw her,she is like a normal girl,quiet and kinda cute.So,after a few drinks, I started to talk giving all sort of nonsense and so do she join along.Well,when she first laughed,I was kinda attracted on the way she laughed so like that la~~~~

Then we dare each other drinking beers as she is kinda new in this beer stuff.So she successfully finish the drinks in one shot.After that, I was dare to meh her to the Pool center,50 metres away.Yea, I meh her haha. Then we tag along playing the pool and then the forth round,we went to MCD and chat again.That night I was not that tired at all and we went home.Her friend gave me her number( i just duno why i take it).so i sms her nice to meet you,adding her in fb and msn.

She is not sleeping that night so I was sot enough and accompany her since she has to stay awake till the next morning at 1pm.So we chatted from 6am to 11am,quite a stupid thing to do.But I got to know her a little bit more.

Then we chatted again at the night and our relationship grew very fast,super duper fast,and i thought it was fate and so do she.Then I back KL,chat again and so....

I was pretty attracted to her tho so I try to court her.Buden,she is kinda cold towards me this few days,I just dunno why.That's y i said I guess i fail again iny my fb status.

I just not confident enough in my relationship coz the previous relationship had almost cause my life.Then, this one happen,sigh

I am just foolish and stubborn to fall in love again.
Why it always happen to me?
Why can't I be successful a little bit?

I just not happy with the way it is.....

5th December 2010

2010-12-05T13:24:00.003+08:00

Here am I again,feeling in tensed mood. Yea,this is my y1s2 and my finals are by next week.I am still wondering in my course,like a blinded fool.

What I am facing now is a dilemma.As usual, it is just a problem that occurred.It is regarding to my studies.I am currently studying Business Information System,yes it is the business with additional of Information system subs. Before I took this,i thought that it is more to business studies and less to IT.As time goes, I found out that the more I am in to this course,the more I am lost.

I have tell and said out many many many many times which stated clear that I am just a Form6 grad and not a foundation or a diploma grad. This has become a major disadvantage to all who have not study any foundation or diploma.They will study and touch a little accounting,java,programming and others.But I have nothing just with my maths and physics.How am I suppose to study such a subject where I am a nobody.I try to find my closest friend to talk with but there aren't any or they are just busy.It looks more like I am alone,very alone.....

I dare not to find YewSon or SzeTo to talk about it because they just seems to be busy or just too busy.So I always keep everything inside of me.I do have other close friend,but then,do you know how boys feel?

They rarely talk about their problems unlike the girls.If we do talk,it means real big problem,and we prefer some privacy.I am just an idiot who can't think about a path that suits me best and i can say,I really a lost duckling with no direction at all....

I wish that I have more choices and capital power but due to my family income,I can't expect more on it.I know is stupid that I change course now,but I really not suitable to continues IT sub because i feel like it is a waste of time and my aim is not to be a programmer or a java writer.I just want something which is related to social and public.However,my mom has strictly prohibited me to take PR and i know that Pr course is useless.So I have no choice but to pick other course.Now I found that the Marketing course is quite on my radar and I just wondering on it currently whether I should take it or not?

Arh,,,,in a bad situation now.Quite down and hopeless.I was lucky enough that someone has appeared few days ago and she quite concern about me.She give me lot of advise,bringing me out of some disturbance,sadness, and so.

A very big thankiew to you,without u,i don't know who else i can talk to...missing you le,xD

11 November 2010

2010-11-11T17:33:00.002+08:00

Today is Fleming birthday.She is now a 20 years old lady which can feminize the guys now.Well of course she is someone special yet not so special to me.

I just wanna wish her to be a cheerful lady,attractive one and confident always.Plan to sing a song to her plotted by me but I never complete the lyrics as I was too busy this few weeks.
So,what I can do is wishing her and with nothing special,

It is fast as 3years had passed and now everyone has their different courses to study.I am too studying in Utar,one and the only.
I should not be angry today because is someone birthday,and tml is my cousin's wedding.But I can't bare the emotional feelings from me.

Wo 7 dulan is what i can say.

There is an assignment and we are a group of 5.First of all,they are living in West Lake and I am the only from East Lake.I don't know why they just cannot separate the jobs to be done.First,if everyone has their own part,the assignment should be finish in no time but they combining everyone in one single task,wasting my time.

Secondly,it is a distance from East to West Lake and they always wanna start to do it at 9pm and end up at 1 or 2am.Boss,do you know that I have to pass through a graveyard and that sounds spooky ok?And I have the ability to sense those thing,so I can't go alone and even in a pair,I have to think it twice.

Thirdly,so I always summit my part,even recommend them some points,I written it on a piece of paper and is fully written.I put a lot of effort in it and I gave it to the group leader.And I was busy during weekend so I have to go back to KL.The next week,when I went to meeting,doing the assignments,there is another fella in our group who thinks he has the BEST plan telling us what to do.So,I comment on that,he straight forwardly said that I did nothing.You know,how angry I was?

It was like,pouring hot water on your body.Of course I defend myself and ask my group leader about it.

I was like wtf?He told me all my points are out and not relevant.Hey,I did that till 3am and you told me is out of point?Thes best part was,he never told me that my point are wrong and he just keep it aside.You can tell me about it,so I can re-do and not being accused of doing nothing.

Fourth,so I was given another task,doing another part and as usual I do again,and I send it to him.He never respond to me and the very last day,he told me all my points can't be used.I was like,Hell ya,whatever I do,is not relevant.

Fifth,when I see the full report from them,I was so pissed that I found out all my points are inside the report.
Do you know what does that mean?They steal my ideas and said is theirs.

Sixth,here comes the best part.We have present it and yea,they give a to do a little part which I can finish presenting in about 1minutes and it should be 5 minutes.So,I am sure that there is an idiot stating that I should be given little part as I was not committed to the assignment.

Fine,I will do a better presentation than yours even as I have a little part because I was trained to speak and to talk as brave as a lion.

27 October 2010

2010-10-27T19:33:00.003+08:00

Yesterday I dreamed about one funny dream.I got pregnant at all sudden.During the dream,you never knew what will happen and not to forget,I am a man with cock,how do I get pregnant?I have no idea regarding to this,so the dream continued.

I was pregnant and my parents,friends and others are supporting me so badly.The growth of the baby is extraordinary because my stomach grew bigger and bigger.I was so bad that I tried to kill the feutus but I cant manage to do it.So day after day,it grew to a larger tummy and one day it suddenly kick me.I was so pain.At last,God rescue me and I work up,I was sweating and it just like a nightmare,I look to my tummy and was in relieve.

As I was cooling down,stomachache attacked me,Wtf?

26 October 2010

2010-10-26T19:23:00.002+08:00

So I chant,and then I gayly laugh hahaha

this is a song which i quite prefering to hear
If you are not sure,hear the song entitle Smoke gets in your eyes
is actually an oldies song

I am so boring now
but what to do?

well,I guess I want to speak out something which I dun really satisfy with it.
Is about my friend,Wai Kien who suddenly became someone who ignore me after the working time in AP Comm.As I remember,I do not know what I did or I accidentally did or he is so small gas?

Alright la,sometimes I might be stubborn doing things without my conscious but I don't really meant to.Another thing is that I always became the white mouse from everybody.WHy because of my action which always looked obvious even though is not I did it.

Seriously,I don't mind being used ok?I also dun mind how other people thinks bout me but bare in mind,you have known me since Form 1 and do you think I am those friend who betray a friend?

I always be considerate all my important friends first and even if I have to sacrifice mine. I am always the middle man who sit down,lend my ears to anyone else and no matter how others stalk my friends,I will defend them a little,i swear.I don't easily put my guard down and hey,remember We are brothers and no matter how big the problem is,we can go through it and we can let the problem solved by itself.

What I cherish most in my life is that I have know a few important friends....

Sze To,Yew Son,Joel,Wai Kien,Andrew Lee,Alvin Lee,Seng Hang,Wing Luo,Kelvin Chia,Ryan,Kha Soong,too much be listed down

Morianz is also a part of my life,
the girls,haha,you know,I really have not much girl fren,those who knew this in fact,u are my best frens la
but the few important ppl is Chestal,Fleming,KaiYunn,Sim Yee,Pooi Sze

These are the people who has change my life!!!!!!

*****So Choo,fuck it or leave it *****

18th October 2010

2010-10-18T15:44:00.003+08:00

I have been active in my blog recently.Blog a lot stuffs which is bad and the good at the same time.So I decided not to let my blog dead at this moment so I will continue for a while.

Today is 18th October 2010 and is a normal Monday.But for us,is not that simple.Is the beginning of Y1S2 for us,Utarian.I was back yesterday and did a few cleaning and slept early coz I was too tired to continue doing any other stuffs.

But,the main story for today is not all this nonsense but to a special friend Khoo Khai Soong who has been 20years old today.

He is since the little caterpillar in our class back in Form 2 which does not really talk much.Prefer to sit there very quiet and always got bullied. However,we never really bully for real la,Friends right?
We use copy notes from him because he is hardworking SOMETIMES only.

But now he has grown to an adult who courts 99.And even more pro than me,so unexpected and it is a good SIgn....

This is Edward Cullen

This is Khai Soong

Well,it does look alike a bit (just for the hair part) but you are not as cool as him!!
hahaha

Happy burfday bro

dedicated just for you!!!

13 October 2010

2010-10-13T17:04:00.004+08:00

I have found out that I really din use my time wisely.I have been spending almost 10hours on facebook during this sem break.I just have no idea what to do in my house.Looks like I am really so bored and wanted to go out so badly.But what to do,no one is free or nobody is calling me out.Looks like everyone is busy-ing.I wish that all of you are just fine as before or maybe better.

Another thing I have found out that my blog has only1 loyal viewer which is CHESTAL CHIN and no body else.Who will ever wanted to read a boring blog like this?

Thx Chestal for supporting my blog.
Maybe I should really think of closing this blog but I just feel so reluctant to do it.

What a fool am I?

13 October

2010-10-13T17:04:00.001+08:00

10 October 2010 (101010)

2010-10-10T15:27:00.001+08:00

Today is the best number of the year which is 10 10 10.What a day indeed.Many people are getting married today and those who birthday today are even luckier.So,they said that this is the best number of the year which rarely to be seen.

And this does not run away from me as well.MY chinese zodiac birthday is today which ten ten ten.....

Gei song leh..Hereby,I am as lucky as them too.

I also would like to wish my pal Joel Wong who has the same birthday as me too.Well,he has been my pal for 8 years.Even we did not meet so often,but we mantain our great bond and it is even stronger than the covalent bond,metallic bond,hydrogen bond and other bonds(includes James Bond xD)

LEt me show who is Joel Wong

Oops,is the wrong guy,this is his idol Roger Federer

Yea,he is Joel Wong

He is a nice guy indeed,has a pretty girlfriend which called Elizabeth Han.He is a super genius in English and that is why we will call him the Walking Dictionary(English only)
He is funny and always bullied(not violent) but he is still a guy with his words.Another thing is that,he is always my right winger,lol.That's right,my one and the only.

Wanna know more bout him,you visit his awesome long bloggings.

http://leonhart90.blogspot.com/

Last but not least,Happy Birthday to Joel and me as well.Bye~~

5th October 2010

2010-10-05T23:36:00.002+08:00

Yes,I am here again to express my feelings.And again I am disappointed with my friends.They did not keep their promise as solid as GOLD .

Today,my topic is the word Trustworthy

I have put my trust on the people around me but in the end I am the one who got thrown out.What the hell is you guys/girls problem?Can you know that I really put my effort on doing that and yet you say No,this,that,there,here,where,duno,DONT CARE!!!!

I just don't know how I can cope with it.OK,I had it enough

I really duno what or how to do it.You see,I am the one who always organize gathering with my friends and I am the one who always so FED UP

I told you(aka ABC) to tell the her(aka BCD) regarding the gathering and yea you agreed and forgotten.Then,when I try to confirm with another person,this ABC comment on my friend FB and tell me to tell BCD.Oh man,I was so fucked up and straight away pour cold water on her.

What a nuisance

I am just disappointed with her and the friends around me.

Do you think that my friends around me having a problem among themselves?

All I know is that I wanted to cry on this matter.

3rd October 2010

2010-10-03T01:35:00.002+08:00

Today I will like to talk something which you all should have,including me.
The word is CONFIDENCE

Be confidence

Well,everyone should have confidence in themselves.However,I am lack of this personality which do me NO GOOD.

I dunno why whatever I do,I will lack of confidence.Maybe I had been suffering from depression?
OR maybe I had gone through a very bad experience which makes me to be a scary little cat....

The example is when I go for exam,I am lack of confidence,
When I wanted to talk to a girl,I am afraid she will ignore me,
When I wanted to court a girl,I am afraid that she might neglect me,
When I wanted to speak something out,I am afraid that it is not important,
When I wanted to make a decision,I am afraid that I make the wrong move.

I dunno how to cure my weakness and to be the best of me again.
I wish that I can be the confidence Smith,without looking back

BUT

don't over confidence because it up to no GOOD

30th Spetember 2010

2010-09-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

Here comes the end of month September and October is here.My day is coming and I am not feeling that right.Something is missing in my life.I guess is my problem which makes everyone feel uncomfortable.I am a human,with feelings.I will happy,sad,hurt,disappointed and so on.I really felt that I am not the one who people find it humorous.I usually can get along with my friends very easy.Look at the new friends I get with,they like me but how about others?I mean those who am a friend to me since ages ago.I felt like you guys have forgotten your part on me.I always thought that I am special,bringing out out sort of ideas which satisfy you.In fact,is a NO.

I don't know why that I am being treat differently now.Maybe the depression I suffered in Form6,being alone,being dump,being alone,being dump,being alone again.

Is kind of sad that I did everything.I don't know whether I sacrifice my Form6 friends is a wise choice or what.I have been a lone RANGER ever since.I thought I have found friends again and then I was drop out again.Then being rejected,that is awful.

I dunno to blame or not to blame.Feel like dying.I am sad,real sad about what is happening on me.I thought there will be message to send to me.But,it turn out that no one cares.Why must I always move the first move?
I am so sick......
I am so bored......

Why am I the only one who remember the funs we had,the joy we shared?Now, you told me that you find new friends?How about me?

I am so sucks.TO be unable to let go what has passed.To remember every single moment we go through.

Maybe I should throw all my friends away,and look for new friends.Why?

Coz they just dont care about me and at least the new friends will talk a bit bout you.

Is not a matter gay,ok?
Is a feeling which I unable to express.Even there is a little girls which I would like to speak with,but they won't.
Everyone seems to be busy.
But at least spend some time with me.
I am so alone again.....

28 September 2010

2010-09-28T02:18:00.002+08:00

Hooray,at last the day of my final exam is here.Now is 2.20am,still blogging.Having insomnia this few days,cant even sleep properly even I am tired.I dont know why I am doing it but yet I am doing it.SO I wake myself up,and blogging here.It has been a tiring day for me this past 2weeks.So after tomorrow's business paper,we are having steamboat outside ,oh yeah!!!!Then by tml morning,we are going back to KL,and everybody is on board.hahaha

However,I dont think that I have things to do in KL.SO is rather boring even if I am back to KL,no transport to go out and most likely staying at home.My motor is in Kampar ma,so tak akan I will ride back to KL meh,sifat also pecah lo,then seriously,i have no idea what am i going to do at home.Quite boring lo.Unless,I lend my aunt's car to drive.Hahaha

10 Sept 2010 second one

2010-09-10T01:28:00.003+08:00

Yea,I ran into my friend's blog and find this interesting.I always like to play this psychology game and I am sure that I have played this several times and everytime I play,I got the same answers.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Try it if you want http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

10 Sept 2010

2010-09-10T00:57:00.002+08:00

Another day of studying at midnight.
This is ridiculous because studying late at night is better than the afternoon.
I really don't understand at all why I like to study at night.

3 more days I will go back Kampar and continue my journey which will be my last battle..
haiz,recently,I also duno what I should do.I was a bit blur on the road I pick.Feeling lonely now. I am not sure who is the person I should talk with when I am sad or happy.In all of a sudden,she appear in my mind.Maybe,is my fault on doing that.You know,breaking someone's heart is bad.And I have no choice at all because I have too.I feel like I am not that good enough to secure a relationship as we are far apart.So,I have to make the move where we don't need to fall deeper.To regret now,is not an option now, because I had done it and there is no turning back.

Nowadays,many of my friends saying that I am childish.

Yea a problem which struck my mind most of the times.Well,I dunno how to comment about this matter la but I try to understand why they call me childish.Ok,maybe is the way I play is too BIG or UNPREDICTABLE la and most of them will say it childish.The way I did is because of I prefer to enjoy to the max rather than doing something boring.I enjoy to see my friends to laugh as much as possible.Their laughter will make me feel better..But,I often think like an adult before I did something.You may not be aware of the thing I did behind but is for everyone's own good,I swear.It just that you all can't see from the outside and you have to see it through deep measurements.

Let me tell you that,

Just fuck it and live it.But that word is very hurt towards me and I always sit at a corner thinking hard again.I might be stupid and always learn things on the hard way but never underestimate my strength to achieve greater heights,you do not know what I am capable of.For example,when you accidentally fell on the floor,you might not know is my act..

I just like to learn new things and teach those who need it,I always like to share if it is in my limit.That is just the natural me for doing that.

Lastly,I just want to say.........

I just want to warn those people that I am the hidden pig that act like the tiger

7th Sept 2010

2010-09-07T01:56:00.003+08:00

You shine again,you shine again!!!
From Justin
is a song which is very sad-ing and touching
I always sing this when i emo

Now,I am having my study week which = to my raya week,what a coincident.
It is 2am sharp now and still i am awake,studying my programming.Glad that I score more than half but not glad that i score not high enough. What else,oh yea today many ppl emo and their aura affected me.

Maybe I am alone now,no one want me or care me or what so over.Sometimes u just cant deny that I need someone by my side.Thot or enjoying my holiday with only one outing but it turn out to be CANCEL.So no more activity for me this week and i only focus on my studies.Actually,I really wanted to go out with my friends.But who are those who still with me?

I thought we have interact so we can get back the way we used to like last time but I am just dreaming.

Others,nahhh,not feeling like going.There is somebody who i do not want to see.

SO ENDED UP ALONE LO,NO OUTING,NO MOVIE,NO GATHERING,NO MAKAN ><

i try to upload photos again but again,it took hours to upload the picture....

I wish that the people I want to spent time,chat with CAN read this and go out with me.At last,I can upload a picture.Is my coursemates
From pink to the black
SUSU,SMITH,TOMMY,CIEWBOON

well,Tommy is one of my buddy currently.Hope he knew that.HAHA
and he is quite handsome and famous tho in UTAR

27 August 2010

2010-08-27T21:44:00.002+08:00

I wish that I was Naruto.OK,not to say I am childish or what but I did learn a lot of stuffs from this anime.If is usual for u guys to say that omg,u are a 20++ years guy and still watching this?
I feel quite normal bout it coz i did watching it.
What I want to stress out today is that,after watching the episode 175,I was wondering why I just cant be like him?

He is very stubborn,foolish,blablabla.But what i admire him most is his courage,is willing to learn,his kindness and his cheerful smile that brings bright star to people.

I admit i am kind of fool and as stubborn as he is.I just hope that i was him.NEver give up till the end or need not to study books..What i need is experience and the will to learn stuffs.

Arh!!!!What am i talking here?I guess y9ou guys never understand me.

I just need to have more courage on doing something!!!!

23 August 2010

2010-08-23T23:46:00.002+08:00

Yes time really pass swiftly.It has been the week13 I am loving in Kampar.Getting used to everything here.Learn new stuffs, get new friends,get new good friends and much much more.
Well,many things have happen again. Had a big misunderstanding among my buddies and being moody all the time. But everyone has different personality and we should help each other right?

Cleaniness is just a serious matter for me.Look now,my nose is running all de time now because I was busy with assignments recently and really have no time to spend on cleaning.I just want everyone to have a good environment to study and not for myself.When the house is clean,I am sure that everyone looks more energize and move everywhere around.When there is people visiting us,they will have a good image of us.That is my opinion but they just reject it.What I feel was that if we don't fix it,they will push the responsibility to each another.Let me compare it to your house,well u respect your mom so u clean it.So how about here?think of it and I am not blaming anyone coz different people,different perspective.

No matter how,you all are still my closest buddies which are treasure to me. What I can do is be patient and do it. I know some day,some how ,you will realize it.

Yes,there is a problem with my blog,I cant upload pictures on to it.Yes,that sucks and I don't like it either.Feel like crushing the blogger now!!!!!!Ok, i gave up on uploading,I waited 30minutes for the upload and it does not appear at all.....

Suddenly,I miss the time of we being together,LOL.....

26th July 2010

2010-07-26T20:13:00.002+08:00

Yea,is hard to see to blog here twice in 6days.Actually,I was in no mood these days because of stress,maybe?What I have here is just stress strezz stresz...........Let me shout out here,basically,I have 4 major subjects which are the Data Communication,Database Development,Fundamental Business and Programming Fundamental.Besides these,I have other 3 more which are the Tamil,Sun Zi Art of War and English For IT.I know,is kind of weird when u saw the word TAMIL right,but it is the fact I am taking it as my elective subject.6 out of 7 subjects are considered above PAR while there is only one which I am below below PAR and that is the programming fundamental.

I faced a lot of problems regarding this programming sub as I am really terribly sucks in this one and without basic.Talking about the coursemates which are mostly from Foundation and Diploma are doing good in this sub and those who are from STPM and UEC,I bet that they are dead like me.

Not to say that I am lazy or what.I did pay attention on what the lecturer was teaching and understand every single stuffs from her mouth but the point is,I don't know how to type the commands.The lecturer is being unfair to us as they did not teach us the basics.My coursemates did help me out and still,I am lack of studying material.

I still have no time to go to the library as I am quite busy with my assignment and studying time.Fine,I will do extra works starting from today...

Let's stop about the studies and focus back to the surrounding in my house.I am not backstabbing anyone but just saying the truth.IN my opinion,I do think that our house is dirty and messy..Less sweeping and lack of cleanliness and responsibility.Since we are staying together,we should act as one,and doing the job together.Not pushing the responsibility to one another to clean the house or what.At least,we have to clean the house once a week and for the room too.You know,our house located at a bad placing which is superb hot and those smells which are not cleaned up,it will evaporate and stink.It is something not so good and is bad for health.Why,for a person like me,I have problems with my nose and I cant handle dust so much.Not only me but there is another person in this house which have the same problem with me.So,we should help each other to clean this big mess up and not just sitting there,waiting for a rescuer or GOD.No matter how long u sit there,the place won't get clean but even more dirty.

I am thinking it twice whether I should stay alone or continue staying here....

22 July 2010

2010-07-22T21:42:00.002+08:00

It has been such a long time not updating my blog.So here am I to blog.Many things have happen recently and I was very busy too.Assignments,assignments,assignments and that is the reason u are studying in university.Kampar is still as hot as ever even if it has rained,wondering why?

I would like to compare places in Kampar and currently I am staying in East Lake.What is the pros and cons for East and West Lake?

Pros
East Lake is peaceful,much more nearer to to Uni,more parking for the housing area...
West Lake has more Food Courts compare to East,more girls to see,much more mamak,futsal court,basketball,etc etc

Cons
East Lake is hot,a lot of bugs after raining,too quiet,not much foods to be selected
West Lake is hot too,bugs definitely,too crowded,rental more

So even I will want to move,I still have to scratch my head whether to move or to stay because they are much likely the same if you compare carefully....

I try to upload some pictures but again,it stucks
maybe next time
ciaoz~~

8th July 2010

2010-07-08T22:42:00.001+08:00

I score either 7 or 8 for my Networking practical test,duno is good or bad.Tml is my database test which require me to memorise the definition,that one hell of thing that i dislike most..Next week,I have to pass up this and that assignment to respective lecturers and programming test again.Another subject which i knew nth bout it.STRESS

27th June 2010

2010-06-27T18:40:00.004+08:00

Show encrypted text

Chestal,testing

21st June 2010

2010-06-21T15:04:00.002+08:00

First of all,Happy burfday to Yew Son,he has turned himself to the world of 20's.May all his wish,studies to be fulfilled lo.
Well,the now is cold now,raining soon but my motor gone liao leh,bicycle also gone liao leh....how to go?

due to some technical error,i cant upload photos.Shit

27th May 2010

2010-05-28T00:37:00.003+08:00

After 4 days in Kampar,I am back to KL and din notice anyone about the presence in KL.Glad that we are back to here.Eventhough the weather in KL is as hot as Kampar,at least it is much more cooler in the night compare Kampar.The reason was simple,Our housing area there is poor of plantings,so most likely just HOT.

What I wanna talk here is about few things.

1st> Kampar is letting me down.I thought that,there will be more pretty girls compare KL,more chunted guys but sadly,just watching the same type of ppl there.So,most likely,we the KL geng is the most fashioned type there.Just funny to tell that....

2nd> I am so fucked up about the weather there.Just too hot la,from day till night,just drought.My gosh,I have to bath so many many times in a single day.Hope that the weather will changed as soon as possible la.....

3rd> I notice that the grudge between me and LC had turned to the worst scenario.The way he reacted has made us anti him badly,I heard a lot of critics from people to him.I can't imagine that he has changed so much in this 2years time.He does has the potential to be a leader but the way he lead is merely POOR!!!!!!How can he does something that he has already knew that he will throw a bomb to himself,just like committing suicide?

4th> I really not sure how much I have already spent in Kampar because I din calculate the amount earlier until today..I just so idiot man...Have to plan up ady

25th May 2010

2010-05-25T20:21:00.004+08:00

Well,I had went to Utar at Kampar.Not much was done coz we have not officially being studying and what we were doing here is just fooling around our housing area

FOR MORE INFORMATION,PLEASE click to szeto as he has type everything we done in these few days............

Thanks Sze To

19th May 2010

2010-05-19T19:32:00.002+08:00

Today is a day where I enjoyed from morning till night.What is the thing that make me this freaking happy?

Well,it started in the dream~~~

There are only few characters in this dream which is me,XXX(those who close to me u know who),my parents.

The story began like this,I got a call from XXX to pick her up in all sudden after she finish doing something?(not very sure as the dream does not state it)
I was a little surprise as she rarely call me and then she asked me to pick her up?
I quickly rode my motorcycle which in weird shape to pick her up.I picked her up somewhere(which i don't know),and as you know,she really shows no emotion to me from starting till now.Oh well, NEVERMIND.....

I slowly rode her back but what surprise me again was that,she was going to my home?I just do my duty to ride where she wants to go so location will be my house.Suddenly,my motor ran out of control and slide to aside where both of us rolled on the road.Both of us survived and I quickly ran into her to ask whether is she safe.She had only a slight injuries and she sat on the grass for a second with a sad face.What I do is to sit beside her immediately.

I asked her,"What happen,XXX?"She replied,"Why you all always like that and did not change?"
So I barely understand what she was talking about and sat quietly beside her.After a few minutes,she hugged on to me and cried gently.What I can do is gently swept on her back and called her to cool down and everything will be fine.

Then,I dare myself up and asked her,"Hey,you knew that I really love you .So,ermmmmm,,,,,do you love me?"

I really can feel that my heartbeat increased and slowly waited for her answer."I know that you love me a lot,and I know that I am stupid to do so much foolish stuffs just to make you sad and upset you.I know you always want to tell me that you love me but you are really an IDIOT.You just dare not to say to me directly but now,you have expressed to me.Of course I love you."

After I heard the reply,I felt relieved and we even hug more gently.We spend some time on there and speak nothing.Sometimes,when we don't do anything doesn't mean that it is not romantic enough but simple thing is just the best scene ever.

Then,I stood up and pick up my motor and rode her to my house.On the way we rode,it drizzled a little bit but still nothing going to chance her mind to hug me on the ride. = )

Once we reached my house,we went to swing set to sit.Drizzling stopped and we sat together side by side.We held our hand solid and softly.I peeped to her and she saw me peeping.I quickly turn away with my shy face.She then slowly leaned down her head to my shoulder.I can feel that our relationship had gone to another solidify stage.After a while,we walked away from the swings with our hands holding .I took her to walk to my grandpa garden.There was a big tree and I called her to go there to wait me.I went to pick a rose planted by my grandpa and hide it behind my backs.When i reached to her,I gave her the rose and Yes, i did it again.I saw the gentle smile from her.She was happy and hugged me instead.There goes our first kiss under the big tree.

It just like fairy tale where both the Prince and Princess have a wonderful life together....

I am so imaginative,muahahaha

18th May 2010

2010-05-18T14:09:00.002+08:00

Is Tuesday and the last week I will be in KL until I depart to Kampar to study.There are a lots of stuffs that I need to prepare and yet I am still sitting in front of my computer FB-ing and blogging.Or is it that I am reluctant to leave KL?

Actually,there is a bit of I miss YOU that feeling running in my brain.The list that I miss most

1st~My Bed
2nd~My family
3rd~ XXX
4th~My Brothers
5th~My Sister
6th~My Home
7th~My flower ~Periuk Kera
8th~My computer
9th~Score Arena and The Challenger

That is my Top 10 list which I miss most...

Felling bad now..Moody,Sad,Missing

There is one incident which I regretted is YYY.Erm,should say that I am the sibet sui yan la.OK la,enough!!!!!

What I hope to find there is Freedom,New Friends,New Environment, Love?(who knows),KAKI!!!!!!!!!

29th May 2010

2010-04-29T23:06:00.002+08:00

At last,I get my ass out of AP COMM,I stopped working today and what surprise me is that,we can even leave earlier today.It is not because we celebrate something or what but we actually had called everyone from the list,sent the email waiting for reply..Usually,1 telemarketer will have 800 pax to call for 2 weeks plus but this time,500 for 5 people.Guess what,1 day gau dim la....

So my team left at 3pm as we get the permission from boss.What I like most is that the work there is very simple,just call the person and ask about their attendance,then we can even chat or to be luckier,your laptop which can on9.What I dislike most about working there is that the salary payment is very long as it takes 2months plus to get the salary.Imagine that,2months plus,do you think this is a big company?NO,it just a little office which is green in colour.Or should I say that the finance manager is too Noob,having a hard time to balance up the account?

I just have no idea at all.They actually owe me a sum of $$ which sum up of thousands plus.Pity me that I have to struggle with time.I will get my second salary by next week,that is what I heard la,but they have delayed it for 2 weeks...

ONe word to say bout them,Cha La you ALL!!!!!!!

My advise to those who viewed my blog and saw this post about AP COMM company,

DO NOT WORK FOR AP COMM LA,SALARY BANYAK GILA LAMBAT..

Another stuff that I wanted to share with you all is,I am leaving KL very soon.
YES,I am going to further my studies in Kampar for 3 years....
It is quite a hard decision for me to decide as I really dunno where I should study besides UTAR.Luckily,my bested bested friends, Yew Son and Sze To are going with me.If they are not going to study there, I still have to study there alone but just lucky they going with me...

Or else,I really don't know how to survive there.I have been to Kampar with them to survey.Let's talk about it.Erm,Kampar is Kampung,everywhere we go,just looks Kampung.Even though how much I dislike bout it,I still have to study there as,I have no options left....

I still in a financial problem state which is quite a problem for me la.....So,I pray hard on God to get a sum of money in peace.....

And another thing to say is,I am getting my own Laptop tomorrow.Looking forward to it...

CIaoz~~~~

16th April 2010

2010-04-16T00:20:00.002+08:00

GOt a new blog skin ^^

7th April 2010

2010-04-07T22:41:00.002+08:00

There is an improvement for me to blog here...Cool huh~~

ok,let's get it straight,I was glad that I got the offer letter from Utar and YES,I am going to study at Kampar,Perak.I duno whether that I did the right choice or not.First of all,Yea I am going away from my family now and I dun need to hear the mumblings from my parents,and FREEDOM at last.However,it will be a painful period for me to leave them so long..Maybe,I should go to get myself more independent and make more friends.

Oops,I forgot to mention that I am taking Bachelor of Mass Communication(Public Relation)..

However,the are more worries to come.I am facing heavy financial problem now as it require me RM6184 for the registration and the first sem fees.My salary has not out yet,and I really dunno how am i suppose to get that sum of money.Plus,I need to get a laptop too right...PTPTN is not quick enough to give me the loan as it consume 3weeks time to proceed,GOSH,I am so DEAD.
I really need money to go on leaving man.Plus,the expenses in Kampar will roughly cause me Rm400 per month and once the PTPTN is out,I guess it will be finish...
Sigh~~

Problem 2 is that,I really dunno what the Hell or what the FUCK happening.All my close friends is like pointing a gun to me.What's wrong with you guys,I really not purposely did something wrong or fish you right?

I guess,my blog is dead,and nobody is reading it,so it is consider very safe to express here.
Andrew Lee,I really dunno what on earth happen to you.K?
I know you are aiming the Australia to further your studies,Yes I deeply support you.You nudge me and I will response ASAP and that day,I just said for fun and you give a damm to me?Seriously,you know,I treat almost every of our own as my real real brother and buddies forever.How the hell would I know that u were busy and you are in a bad mood?

Even when I am busy,I will either telling u that BUSy or won't reply u,and since u reply me with simple english,of coz I thot that you are relaxing..

Hell ya man,and you treat me like a CC and do you think I enjoy it?

A thousands SORRRY for you and you accept it la...

26 March 2010

2010-03-26T23:02:00.003+08:00

Aloha!!
It has been another month that I have not update my blog....
Yet,my blog is still boring as usual...

But still,I am quite bored now,so I guess I update a little bout my blog

what to blog bout me?

Allright,well,I just finish my events in my company yesterday and currently,I am jobless now
PIty me ><

I need to save $$ as much as possible because,I have selected UTAR as my option to study MASS COMMUNICATION(PR)..I think 99.9% that I would not be selected to go for Local Uni as my result is so terrible until I can't imagine how bad is was....

Well,another thing is I bump into her again,just wondering why God do such a thing to me.Is it really fate?If there is a fate between us,just give me a chance and hope that this time it will work.My close friends know what I think and what I feel when I was in bad mood or in good mood.You know that I really someone who don't really hurt someone that badly unless,you did something to me...Even so,I din forget every single moment being together with you right?Sometimes,I do think that I am a IDIOT....

I have lost the feel and yet,I manage to find it back in the darkness

here is the picture all the crew who works in AP COMM

11th february 2009

2010-02-11T23:53:00.002+08:00

Oh yea,another 3more days,we as the CHINESE will celebrate Chinese New Year.Time is passing so fast and in a blink of an eye,I am 20,again I will so sad to hear that my teenage life had passed.Bought almost all of my shirts and spend most likely,Rm300 on everything,adui,again,I am so sad to hear that my pocket is unloaded ady.....
But,it is good to have new clothing in every year geh...........

Today,I will blog something that quite surprise me and something that related to me......

Where do I start?

Well,it is just another simple day where I go to work la
I just like normal,do this and that,every single morning....
Then Choo told me about something that related to my data,so when i checked again
it was related to another ZZZ data
Of coz I will go to talk with ZZZ and said that our data was the same,so we have to do something on it
as I talked to ZZZ and ZZZ was not replying,what would you do?
of coz,you will ask again and again and again until ZZZ reply you right?

BANG,hit jackpot,scold 9 me!!!

THIS IS so WTF

Smith Shim just got silenced and do nothing
WEIRD SMITH SHIM

8th February 2009

2010-02-08T00:27:00.003+08:00

ok,now it is 12.30am of Monday and it is one week more to go before Chinese New Year celebration....
I can't sleep now and still,tomorrow I am working.... =.=

Let's see....
I have just bought a single V neck shirt for CNY and one week of shopping left for me......
How am I suppose to have time to shop?
5 days of working from 9am to 6pm...Maybe in the night(still have to see my mom's mood)
And for the other days,I have to give my transport to my dad...
Saturday is year 30 nights(cantonis) and I cant go shopping of coz.....
And Sunday is First day of CNY,and it is too late for me...

Maybe I have to get permit from mom to go night shopping?
but MidValley has nothing much to shop arh!!!!!

GOAL!!!!is Drogba again and currently,Chelsea is lying ahead 2-0 against Arsenal

back to business....
How leh?
I need a Jeans,shorts,and 2shirts

Haiz,very mafan,maybe I ask for one day off to go shopping?
Planning to give excuses now

Headache headache headache!!!!

Well,it has been 2 years for me to blog.Isn't time passes swiftly and my age is getting older and older............

Soon,going to marry and who is my wife XD
I still have no idea dude,maybe a female,with boobs,eyes,hands,mouth,ears,long hair?

HAHA,just dunno
hope she appears on the right time and I will be happy all de time

actually,IF YOU SEE THIS,i think you know who you are,I am really SORRY on what I did
sincerely from my heart!!!!!!!

NITEZ

3rd February 2010

2010-02-03T21:39:00.003+08:00

It has been very very long that I have not update my blog.I guess,a month dead?
Sounds cool
XD

Well,I have not written anything about year 2010,which is a TIGER year....
New beginning and the age of 10++ is ending soon.left roughly 8months before I reach 20..
I really can't imagine that 3years of life just gone....
Many thing happens I guess.

*getting my license,
*finish my STPM,
*MBS life ended,
*scoring badly for my MUET(retake it again la)
*working in Ap-Comm(which turn out to be MBS area)
*getting my Aino phone
*miss my friends a lot a lot
*Maturity?XD

lots more that have changed

Will post some pictures soon so that my blog wont sucks!!!!

Go forward Smith!!

29 Dec 2009

2009-12-29T12:55:00.003+08:00

I read something rather interesting in Kit Yee's blog.Sad to hear and I also a bit regret and some particular part.Some reason,I never thot WB would do such a thing.I always thot he is a frenly guy and nothing else.But it turn out to be a selfish,idiot,chicken Guy who never dares to face it like a MAN..
wel,i respected her ask a FEMALE as she take the responsibility without fear.She handle it professionally.But one thing she did not do properly is that she dare not to sound it more roughly.If I were her,I think Cw and WB is both dead,seriously...I never let them shout or shoot me with whatever things they have.When they do faults,they sure admit it and not find scapegoat instead.Bea guy like me,we have to tolerate and understandable,not to push the responsibility to other people.

when someone shout vulgars to me,and I smile,means that it is a jokes
when someone shout vulgars to me,and I shout back,means they are in big trouble....

No one can be scolded without reasons or whatever...

Seriously,I am Man of his words!!!!!!

10 Dec 2009

2009-12-10T22:57:00.002+08:00

Finally,everything is over now,STPM is over,my stress is gone,no more painful memories and no more lame stuffs....
Woohoo
I can say that I am so damm bloody happy right now,right here(laughing myself)
Ok,Let's see what to write

First of all,STPM is over,I mean get the F_c_ out of me!!!!NO more study till midnight and wake up again at 3am and study again......
No more formulas,everything is just deleted straight away after my exam,seriously,now my brain is empty....

Next,I am no more Clancy,woohoo,Throw everything away and prefer back to Morianz!!!!!!!!!
So many fun stuffs to do,go here,go there,do this,do that.....
No need to let my classmates anti me or me myself anti that person or or or no need to see this face and that face and even that face and more face,I no need to become unhappy Smith but back to the wild Smith and extremely dangerous and cheerful me..LOL
No need to let this fella talk behind me or criticize me here and there.........

Thirdly,I am getting AINO,OMG that is serious one man
I am getting it,tml,tml,tml
I just can't wait till tomorrow ......
8.1Mp,8gb,2.6 inches
wowo,that is fantastic,right?dun jealous la,get a SATIO and beat me UP

What else I need to mention,I so damm bored right now,even though everything is over....
Miss my school life,ahem,I mean my form 5 year where we do nut stuffs.....

Currently,my room was under attacked by flying termites,stupid la...Usually I use cellephone tape and tape the hole,but this time,i see no hole,what to do?Use ur brain la,quickly grab ur vacuum and just vacuum the spot which u suspect there are termites

5th Dec 2009

2009-12-05T00:07:00.002+08:00

ISHHH.....
I was so angry on my lame classmates
They thought they are very mature enough to face problems outside the world
But,my opinion was they are not ready at all..

Example,when a group of unknown gangbang u and some of ur frens.What would u do?
One of them told me that she will call police but do she think she have time to do so?
Another one told me to settle it without hurt(a better idea)

For me,I think I can give signals to my frens and act according to the environment.We can shout,run,or think some sort of ideas which lead everyone to safety.I didn't say that I have to use force but ur brain to think and avoid it.

Don't u know that co-operation is the strength with everyone is the key of success?

Fine,I take it seriously and tell them what to do and what not do.They just ignore it and talk other stuffs instead.Well,I dunno what will them face in future but I know I at least prepare enough....

1more week to go and my STPM end,,,,GAMBATEH

5th November 2009

2009-11-05T21:17:00.004+08:00

Being away for almost a month plus and I didnt even write anything for my burfday too
paiseh paiseh
The reason I blog here today is because this Saturday is my MUET examination
and I have not prepare for it MAN
let's get back to the point

Exam is very very near.To countdown for STPM,I have 18 days left for my first paper and 27 days to wait to go for my FUTSAL
I really can't wait to go out,futsal,blow water and every stuffs we always do

But currently,I am so stress up about the formulas,thecnique,theories and all stuff that I have to memorize.

The more I hope,the more suffer I get,
The more u want,the more u cannot get
This is the world which is not fair and square
U always try your best but ended up JAM

Very depressed now,I prefer to study at school rather than at home.In school,at least someone teach me and I can have a joke or two.But if I study in my room,I just look at my computer enough already,the comp will suddenly switch on and you don't even know when it was on.SO scary~~~

To all my Form 6 friends,eventhough I did not wish you in school,it doesn't mean that I am not sincere or I am selfish but it always come from my heart which is pure.

Good Luck everyone!!!

24th Spet 2009

2009-09-24T13:50:00.003+08:00

It has been very very long that I did not update my blog.As Su Xian said,we can see spider web ady....

Right what has happen lately?
Let's see

First of all,my comp spoilt for 1 whole month and I manage to study and not touching the comp at all..
Then my TRIAL exam started and I did badly again...
Next,one week of holidays for Hari Raya Puasa and now I am using some time to write something on here...

STPM is getting very near and I have around 60 more days if I not mistaken.I still not using the full potential of my days to study and I feeling that I am so IDIOT..

Have to spend more time on study la.How am I going to force myself to study again?Spoilt my comp for the second round?Nah,it cost $$

Well,I am here to post something to remind me and also my friends...

As you know,we are taking STPM is to score better and to get into a better University.If you are still playing around and not studying,how are you suppose to get the U u wanted to?You have decided to take on the path and now u have to continue to it,Work hard,study hard,put effort into it,Although u might not score well but at least u have try ur best!!!!

10th August 2009

2009-08-10T22:16:00.004+08:00

There is one superb good news for me.I have not been passing my maths subject since lower six till now,and this is a small short test that has been given to us..

I passed the exam but what's more is I score an A minus.OMG OMG OMG..I damm freaking happy ady.So,nothing is impossible if I really study.

I got a sentence spoken by The Rock in a baseball movie..He told his team

There is one in the world would like to be a loser.What I want you all to do now is,get out there and kick some asses

So,I guess I should put effort on whatever I am goin to do,as there is nothing is impossible!!

23rd July 2009

2009-07-30T20:22:00.000+08:00

Recently,many things happen
I wasn't that happy either

I was suffering from a bad dream to another bad dream
I wish so hard for it to end and it lasted for 2months maybe

I tried most of the ways to let go of my bad feelings.What I did?
-I played badminton
-I scold people
-I act very cool
-I do stupid stuffs
-I shout and act like Tau Juan
-I avoid people from coming near to me

See,I am so crazy with the lame things.I went to disturb my classmates and even get scolded.I just need some good scolding that can wake me up

What I face seriously was the friendship matter
I was having a very bad relationship with almost all my close friends in class
Lame huh?
I am almost 19years old and complain bout this thing but I really can't stand it ma.For 2months I have been suffering on this.I really need someone that I trusted to talk with but I dunno what kind of misunderstanding and made us out blind-folded and can't think properly.So I let the wise one to decide what to do.

THE TIME

One second by another second passed and never stop.I worked hard to secured something.Luckily I met someone who willing to listen and help me out.I just keep talking and ask this and that.This person i should call PERSON A who I really need to hug,I meant a good freaking strong hug to this PERSON A.It generates out a weird relationship and I really dunno how to describe it.Erm,I think I should not tell much about it.Let's remain a secret....

Erm,STPM is very near and yet,I am still not very serious on my studies.I really started to study a little by little,10%?Hope that will increase to 87% after I enjoy all my stuffs but time is really not allowing me to do so..

I really hope that I can understand more what Pn.Chan is teaching me and giving more attention to my group as she concentrate a lot on the other group which neglected us....

I hope Mr.Thong will continue his rubbish which I consider very useful for me to fire up my speed.

I hope Ms.Yap will ask me more questions and willing to help me out.

I hope Pn.Mazlini will still sayang us like her own children where we feel very warm and safe..

I hope Pn.Wong allow us more to have grouping so that we can discuss MUET(HAHA)

I do hope that all my friends,families will be very fine

I hope the 3 person that having misunderstanding with me would have been closer because I really miss one of them and the Newcomer will not leave me

Can I get what I wanted that much so that I can be happier?
There will always hope and new things occuring so that U feel new

28 July 2009

2009-07-28T20:49:00.000+08:00

words from the bottom of my heart

To find someone you love a lot is tough
To get her on you is tough
To show her that you can is tough
To be strong is tough

I watch her closely each and everyday
I took a long glance whenever I can
I do whatever that she is not hurt
And being a clown in front of everyone

What I facing now is
stress,stress,more stress,and even more stress
gossips in class are bored and sometimes not so true
An angel shown up and I wanted to neglect it
I'm just too afraid
Can I be the Devil?

12July 2009

2009-07-12T23:09:00.000+08:00

As Choo say,STPM is getting nearer and I have to prepare a lot ady.Starting from syllabus from Form 5,revise it back to get basic and go for Form6 syllabus..

Have to work very hard la to get CPGA of 3.2 above in order to get my science field..Maybe I will not updating my blog that usual and goin for study....

I am goin to write a very long post before i goin for my STPM...

Ciaoz

7 July 2009

2009-07-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

If u don't want to play just say it out,I can call it a day of two and let go of the game
Dun play me
or even try to drag me into bad mood
The words u say to me is Bullshit

I am very tired today
Even being a sick donkey
And having 3 tele-matches
Do you think I am Superman?

I try all my best
Putting all my efforts in every game
And you tell me that we are not match
for a period of almost 2 years playing along
and u telling me this?
I am so disappointing

TAGGED BY WAI KIEN

2009-07-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
--- Ketiak?joking la...i think it would be her left cheek

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING?
--- so early wake up for tuition class,SIEN ARH!!!

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH?
--- Phui Moon?

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED?
--- I would like to say I NOT Very sure XD

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD?
--- yea~!

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX?
--- yeap, i have a few

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD?
--- YES,is her

8. What does your last text message SAY?
--- So good

9. What are you thinking right NOW?
--- win big money

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW?
--- yea~

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
--- 11+

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
--- forget lo,it is my form1 shirt till now,LOL

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW?
--- yesssss

14. Who was the last person who text YOU?
--- also Phui Moon

15 questions below is none of my business
I just dun wan to tag ppl la
HAHA

4th July 2009

2009-07-04T15:56:00.000+08:00

I steal a picture from Joel's Blog and what I want to do is...

Nothing la

Just a sweet picture from both of them during the trip to Singapore,Melaka,Kluang

All de best ya!!!!!!

3rd July 2009

2009-07-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

Today is the launching of MBS Idol and also the Chinese society Chinese song contest.I ran a lot because I am the Judge for MBS Idol and also the participant for the Chinese song singing competition.The MBS Idol performance has a few talents found and it will be quite interesting for this time.And once again,I can sing agian in the chinese singing competition because I enter final liao ma.Last year we can't get any trophy is because the Upper 6 has blackmailed the teachers coz only the upper 6 won it and they sang terribly.

Although I managed to enter final,I feel quite moody right now while I am blogging..I feel like everyone is being just themselves and I don't really like it.They like having thier own world and become even more selfish as STPM is coming nearer.Everyone looks so cool just like the end of the world.For what to be so stress?Maybe I am not as clever as u all but I try not to get distracted.

Everyone like the photo that I took with her and what is the thing going on now is everyone thought that we are together but the truth is NONONONO!!!

I still hope that it is truth but the percentage for it to be true is very slight,around 10%.I was told that not to give up that easily but I have already try for 1year plus?somewhere around there but the probability just won't go up....

I had a talk on the NO APOLOGY and they told us something..

If u love someone,U can be patient and wait for her to accept you...

but what if she really no feeling on you and u are being a dummy all this time?This question is running around my brain and I can't get a good solution..

Yesterday,I played a psychology test and I always believe on this because everytime it was 90% accurate.What is the problem I facing now?

Well,I am lack of love..I am those type of ppl who can get energy from being love and even in a strong friendship.The more I am alone,the more I weaker..
Seriously,after thinking it a while,I do felt like I need love.When I get love from her,I do feel that I have more strenght in studying or doing anything and even friends that has always support me..

But now,I lost both precious stuffs that encourage me most..

Can I love you?I really love you,I will say unlimited times eventhough u hate or dunwan to hear about it because I am someone who is serious about love

2July 2009

2009-07-01T20:51:00.000+08:00

Recently,not up to mood la coz many things happen and I very not sastify..First of all,report cards will be given out on 11 July but my grade is not good enough,sure that my mom will blow me up.Later on,I dunno why everyone is so so so so cool on me this few days.

Is it I upset u all again?I just have no idea about it.For me,friends play a very important role and it helps me a lot in studies and lots more but again,one by one is having that weird aura on me.Really want to play until that level meh?
Later on,we have a No Apology talks the whole day,teaching us not to have sex b4 marriage....

After that,we have football and basketball tele-match.And both games are against my beloved class,MORI

a bit paiseh de but I still have to play for Clancy coz now is my recent class right?
Although is a bitter win,I still have to do it

26th June 2009

2009-06-26T19:57:00.000+08:00

Today is our Mr.Handsome burfday,Chester

Wish him all da best in the cuming days
Hope he can grow taller and I bet that more girls will come to u
LOL

22nd June 2009

2009-06-22T20:04:00.000+08:00

Everyone on this world has different perspective and aims and so do I.Today's topic is about left handed like me.The wise one has spoken that LEFT-HANDED are far more brilliant in art and mathematics.They are gifted but the are from Devils.They can think very creatively and make the difference if they really want to try to.

So,I will start to work extremely hard in order to get 3.0 above for my STPM.The problem is that I can't achieve that in MBS coz they mark far more strict.I bought plenty of books for revision and goin to study soon..

About the post yesterday,many has told me that,it is so touching,LOL....
but it is true,no story making here!!

There is someone who I dunno what the heck is wrong with him and he remain so cool until I got fed up with him.So like to act cool huh?
Too bad,u are not up to the quality yet,I know you are here but dun over limit coz when I explode,I scare that u are in big trouble...

Another thing was,the girls decided to tell me what type of guy am I.They say I very childish,selfish,hard-neck,pointless,brainless,and etc.This is what I remember la..

Let me tell you,what does all the sentence means..

If I am childish,you all are 100times even more childish than I.Thinking all the craps,without using brain,all sort of bullshit that never care for someone.Have u ever thank someone after he/she did something great for u all?I tell you now,the answer is NO.This is opinion,you all have not thank me even once for what I did to you all and even complain the things back at me about anything.If u are so PRO,why don't you all conduct it all by yourself?

I being selfish.I am selfish,I won't spend my efforts and times to organise all the things for you all and I didn't even enjoy it coz all the craps u given to me..

Hard-necked.OK la,this one I admit.I am those who Chang Dou Dai...

Pointless and brainless.Looks like they are so smart and I am not up to the quality of them..

And to those who feel that they are one of them,dun be guilty,dun be sad..U can change
This is not back-stabbed but I am typing right here

21st June 2009

2009-06-21T20:33:00.000+08:00

Another thing that I wanted to post...

I trying very very hard to forget about her.Evnethough it does hurt,I still continue to do it since everything is not possible anymore..Sad thing to say too ><

And,I have this weird dream

The dream is like this,I saw my soul flying out from my body(translate in cantonis),wondering around every single part.It looks more like a dead person.What I cant let most is still HER.
I followed her all around and this weird situation happened.She was following her mother's car to go somewhere(dun ask me where is it)

Then,her mom parked the car next to the road side,I was flying behind them,chasing them.

And then,I saw a lorry,carrying a lot of zinc which is very thin,LOST control and crashed on them.Those Zinc which were held behind,fly over and sliced throught the car.You know what happen?

I saw her front face was sliced out and her mom's head was cut off right in front of my eyes.I was stunned on what was happening...

I went near them,opened the door,and got her out from the car...My hand was fulled with blood.I can't really believe what I have notice.Both of them were not moving.I tested them whether they still alive but a nigative sign shown.

My tears started to drop,cried loudly,hugging her tightly,screaming to her,not to leave me.It is already too late for me to tell her that,I really Love her................

I was so sad and freezed in the moment and suddenly,a voice was head beside my ears.

Man Jung.Man Jung.Is me.Man Jung,can you hear me?

Yea,I heard her loud and clear.I turned back and I saw her.It was her soul and even her mother is standing next beside her...

I was still crying,but once I saw her,I was happy and hugged her immediately.What I shock most is that,I managed to hug her too...She spoke something to me.

Man Jung,sory for not seriously telling you my feelings.I do love you but I just dare not to accept it.I just worried and now,I also felt very s0rry that,I didnt manage to tell you that,I love you too.Now, is already too late to say it.I am dead now,along with my mother.I just dunno what to say or what to tell her.

Her mom told me that she knew that I am a good,kind,caring person,an extinction type of male that every single girl dream of,you may find another good girlfriend in future.They told me that they now dead and can never continue thier life...

When I wanted to tell them not to worry,I found out that our distance is getting further and they waving at me.I run towards them but I can't chased them.

I woke up,with a fast beating heart,tears on my face,sweat on my forehead.

It was dream,a bad dream.I was so scared and immediately sms her at 8morning.I had her reply on 12,my heart just slowlyt to relax,and I feel glad that,it is just a dream.

No matter how much i try,I am still afraid to lose her....

Am I being stupid or just that I really found the person that I really wanted to be together with?

21st June 2009

2009-06-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

Today is a special day for my fren....

The clock strucked 12am!!!!

completely forget about this guy,Yew Son Burfday.So,quickly plan stuffs to celebrate for him
Almost complete but due to lack of people,the plan has postponed to next week Sunday as a BELATED BURFDAY celebration

In year 2007,his look is like this

After a day changed,his hair is like this

Still with the blur face

2008,I can't get any of his photos

And now,the year 2009

He become like this

Sorry for not making the celebration tml,and hope u always happy,always act cute non-stop

Bless u with the good 19th BUrfday

CIaoz bro

16th June 2009

2009-06-16T20:06:00.000+08:00

I specially dedicate this song to her
This song was sung by Backstreet Boys and I hope that SHE does know that I am not playing the fool

This song entitled Shape of My Heart

Baby, please try to forgive me
Stay here dont put out the glow
Hold me now dont bother if every minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man that Ive become, oh yeah

Lookin back on the things Ive done
I was tryin to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Send in this beautiful loneliness thats tragical
So help me I cant win this war, oh no
Touch me now dont bother if every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man Ive become

Lookin back on the things Ive done
I was tryin to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Im here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I dont know where to start
But to show you the shape of my heart

Im lookin back on things Ive done
I never wanna play the same old part
Ill keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Lookin back on the things Ive done
I was tryin to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Lookin back on the things Ive done
I was tryin to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Show you the shape of my heart

Tagged By Chestal

2009-06-15T20:54:00.000+08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 15 people to be tagged.

WHAT WAS YOUR :

1. Last beverage : Mineral Water

2. Last phone call : My mom

3. Last text message : Phui Moon

4. Last song you listened to : Ai dau Fung Dian

5. Last time you cried : how the heck I knew?

HAVE YOU EVER :

6. Dated someone twice : yea

7. Been cheated on : of coz

8. Kissed someone & regretted it : I still have my first kiss

9. Lost someone special : yes

10. Been depressed : yes

11. Been drunk and threw up : I didnt drunk but always thot that I'm Drunk due to my red face..

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS :

12. Blue

13. purple

14. Red

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU : (2009)

15. Made a new friend : PLenty

16. Fallen out of love : I wish that I wont fall in love with her

17. Laughed until you cried : not yet

18. Met someone who changed you : no?

19. Found out who your true friends were : I ady have my buddies

20. Found out someone was talking about you : yea

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list : none

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life : Majority

23.How many kids do you want? : 3 gua

24. Do you have any pets : all died

25. Do you want to change your name: Maybe in the end of the year

26. What did you do for your last birthday : My Clancy celebrated for me where I have a little memorable stuff

27. What time did you wake up today : 6.20am

28. What were you doing at midnight : trying to beat insomia

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for : scoring flying colours in STPM

30. Last time you saw your Mother : just now

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i wan to tell her ' i really love u'

32. What are you listening to right now : Nothing

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom : TOm?Tommy zhai.LOL

34. What's getting on your nerves right now : ten fingers also count cant finish

35. Most visited webpage : MY blog la

36. Whats your real name : Shim Man Jung

37. Nicknames : Smith,Forest King,Master of All Wild-X, etc....

38. Relationship Status : Single

39. Zodiac sign : Libra

40. Male or female? : male

41. Primary School? : SK (L) Methodist

42. Secondary School? : SMK (L) Methodist

43. High school/college? : FOrm 6

45. Long or short : I wan longer

46. Height : 179cm

47 Do you have a crush on someone? : yes~

48: What do you like about yourself? : My 24hours non-stop mouth

49. Piercings : Gays

51. Righty or lefty : Lefty

FIRSTS :

52. First surgery : nope

53. First piercing : none

54. First best friend : JanSon Wong Jian Xiong,LOL

55. First sport you joined : Fighting

56. First vacation : Genting Highland?

59. Eating: i'm full now~

60. Drinking: yakult

61. I'm about to: Makan Satay as supper

62. Listening to : Nothing

63. Waiting for: the time to rock

64. Want kids? : who dun wan kids,they are so adorable

65. Get Married? : around 28???

66. Career? : in the physics field

WHICH IS BETTER:

67. Lips or eyes: Lips

68. Hugs or kisses: Rape

69. Shorter or taller: Shorter

70. Older or Younger: younger

71. Romantic or spontaneous: depends on my girlfren

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both

73. Sensitive or loud: err.. sensitive?

74. Hook-up or relationship: hook Up ,haiz

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: trouble maker....

HAVE YOU EVER:

76. Kissed a stranger: still have my first kiss lo

77. Drank hard liquor: yup

78. Lost glasses/contacts: no

79. Sex on first date:u are so chi ma gan

80. Broken someone's heart: I 'm too soft

82. Been arrested: no

83. Turned someone down : haha, i think yea?

84. Cried when someone died: ya

85. Fallen for a friend?: ya

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: always

87. Miracles: sometimes

88. Love at first sight: yes!!!!!!

89. Heaven: yea

90. Santa Claus: yea

91. Kiss on the first date: let's c who is da lucky girl.. haha

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no

96. Ever cheated on somebody? : who,if there is,he must be sucking

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? Seriously,the time where we groamed in Form 5

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? IN her house?
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? yes

I tag

SzeTo
Choo
KiYun
KaiYunn

The Pictures

2009-06-15T20:26:00.000+08:00

As I promise,here are the pictures.However there is some problems when I uploading the pictures coz it take so much time to upload due to the size of the pictures..I only took a few best shot to be posted here...

happy family

VIncent and I

Inside Mahkota Parade

LiYin and Phui Moon

Xin Yi's Ah Ma aka our Ah Ma

One of the Chinese temple

They guy who brought sarung along

The girls

Hap Ziu

11th June 2009

2009-06-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

I am back from Melaka trip and it is totally a disaster...

Details are a bit clumpsy,SORRY

First of all
I am the organiser
I set or the details about the trip and where to meet
I asked everyone to gather at school on Tuesday at 9am
I came earlier at 8am and waited them like an Idiot...
Waited till 9.30++ and not even a single person appeared

a sms came from a girl
~where are u?
~I told her that I am waiting for everyone in scoo since 8am and no one turned up
~YOu know what she replied?
~We all waiting at PlazaRakyat station

OF coz I angry la, I told everyone wait at scoo and everyone went there to wait without noticing me,FIne,as they wished,I rushed there and then,some said that they have not eaten yet..
This another thing that give me another blow
I had told everyone to prepare their food before departuring..Quickly,they went to eat...

Hope everything is goin smoothly but once we reached hotel,another problem occurred
We have to book another room as the number of users are too many...
Took 10minutes to settle it...

As we promised,we have to go Xin Yi house to makan lunch,we went there and have it,we were delighted to her grandma for being so nice to us,Thx a lot....
SHe offerred that dinner is available too and I told her around 8plus we reach there
We then walked around Melaka and have few shots....
By,6pm we went back to Hotel and have a rest with baths...The guys were ready up at 8.45pm and for the girls,nonsense appeared...there were still 2 buggers where they have not bath yet

You know what,when u promise someone,u have to fulfil it buden it is almost 9 and they aren't rdy...

Have to call Xinyi to apologise la,or else their family waiting for us to have dinner together right...

Night time we were going to Bar for a drink,as I said,everyone must drink but 2 buggers not drinking....
As I want to add more beers,they say I am drunk,HOly Shit!!!

It just the first beer I took and they say I drunk?
FIne fine fine,back to hotel then...

Next day,we woke at 8 and preparing to go to walk around,a Sms came fron Xin Yi stating that she is not joining us for the walk...

Fine with it,we walked ourselves and and I told everyone that we were goin to watch DraG me to Hell at 1115pm but as we reached Mahkota Parade to book ticket,the time changed to 1145pm..what is difference between 30minutes?IS the newspaper error la......

MOvie cancelled and another movie was selected(TERMINATOR SALVATION)
I wasn't happy coz there is someone in the group was treated unfairly and another person who avoiding me hellly....

Then we walk around and went back to hotel to rest...As the boys rdy up again,the girls were rdy too but they wore too fancy..The plan was cancelled due to majority did not agree with it but then they wore it,so the boys have to cracked their head to wear smarter...
Problem solved and we went to hunt dinner...

Common sense here,we wore so smart,should we eating at mamak???
of coz NO and the girls want to eat claster food and the best part is claster food is more EXPENSIVE and their budget is LESS then RM30...
Isn't the funniest thing...
We have to hunt one restaurant to another restaurant to get what they asked for,and in the end we found it...

Later on, we went to watch movie and nothing happen....
THe next day,we packed up stuffs and back home....

Overall,12 unwanted events happen and it makes me very not sastified with it....

PIctures are to upload soon...

7th June 2009

2009-06-07T16:44:00.000+08:00

I do have a friends and mostly are brothers..
To me,a friend that I treasure will have a lot of respect from me
and those who don't treat me as a friend,they will gain nothing

Erm,I will share some of my brothers which are closest to me

Joel Wong Joon Meng a.k.a walking dictionary
-He is born with very unbelievable English vocabs
-A friend who has de same BOD as mine
-An elder brother of me in 1 2 hours..
-A friend that always talk with me
-Someone who always encourage me to fight for the one whom I love
-The right winger
-A smile from him would be fantastic

Sze To Tze Hang a.k.a future leader
-a person who I really respect
-intelligent skills and tricks
-swear upon his words
-right striker
-Kind hearted friend
-hear my troubles all the time
-scold me with the wise opinion

Cheong Yew Son a.k.a Fei Kei Lou
-a smile where 1000 girls attracted to
-for me,his smile sucks
-Stylist
-Full of tricks as Sze To
-friend that always remind me to eat Shyt
-But,he is still a guy with trust

Choo Wai Kien a.k.a Speaker
-a man who swear upon his balls too
-has a voice with 1000Hz frequency(beat Moey Yoke Lai)
-a sprinter who can run and avoid stuffs
-another leader where a lot ppl respect
-central midfielder

Andrew Lee Wei Lin
- a guy with slight bravery but dare enough to scold u vulgars
-can't pronouns mosquito in cantonis properly
-guy that couldn't live with cash
-still a kind guy
-Central midfielder

Yap Ki-Yun a.k.a Korean looking guy
-when he smiles,u cant even locate his eyes
-a guy who bring alot of jokes that entertain ppl
-speak with great english too
-fat ass that can on field
-Striker

There are still alot of friends that I treasure but lazy to type ady
For example members of Morianz 07,Chee Lek,Seng Hang,Win Yip,Dennis,Jason Ng,Dennis,Eric,Khew,Meng Shen,and lots lots more

there are girls but they wont view my blog so I shall rest my hands

XD

I present a poem for u all

A friend is someone who u need
They are given trust and will help when U are in trouble
They will not leave you behind
They will try their best
to bring you out from darkness
never let you down
Will share their underwear with you(except girls)

Friends are like my family
I can't neglect my friends from trouble
I even hurt myself in order to make a friend happier
Coz,Smith Shim is a Man of trustworthy

5th June 2009

2009-06-06T13:56:00.000+08:00

Another boring day and the holidays were half way tru....
During the night time,my sis wanted to buy shoes and I was assigned to accompany her.As there is nothing to do during the night,suggested to watch movie.Separate to 2 paths and I went to buy movie tickets.Plan to watch NOTM but the tickets being sold out.I picked on the Hannah the Montanna movie although I dunno much about that movie.Just a movie with a lots of singing...
That movie is quite interesting.It is about a young teenager who has 2 different life and have to hide it.Being Miley and Hannah at the same times is tough.

For more details,go to watch the movie.It will be best if u watch with ur couple...

4days to count down b4 goin Malacca

3th June 2009

2009-06-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

Next week Tuesday,I am goin to Malacca to have a class trip
It is my first ever outside KL trip I organised
I was a nervous but through the guidance of Joel,Vincent and few more frens
I managed to make it

Today,I went to buy ticket and the unusual thing was she was with me
I was so so so happy
that she is willing to accompany me although it is just a while
we walk to the PuduRaya
and chat all the way

It has been so long that we have not walking out together
hope the moments will come
XD

I know
I know
Being stupid ma

29th May 2009

2009-05-30T00:28:00.000+08:00

Exam has over,My score sux,damm fed up.....
Nid to get a the best shot on trial
no more play play
and I find Alan Smith in youtube

During the time he in Manu,he is invisible
WHo say that he didnt score vital goals for Manu?

HE did,k?

let's see his video

He is unbelievable strong and I am always Smith Shim

26th June 2009

2009-05-25T20:54:00.000+08:00

I need a very warm hug from her or my bested buddies...

I really need it very much
That hug is important coz I can feel safer when you are around
Stress has overcome me and I dunno how to overcome it

Cracking my head for solutions for chemistry and physics paper tomorrow

Today,due to the stress i facing,I went down to 5Mori,our very own home where u feel absolutely stress-free,(SERIOUSLY)

I sit back on my own sit refreshing my memories back there.I still remember that I played police role on the front door and those fists we punched on the back...Let me tell u something,I felt like our class was haunted ady....

From the moment I enter it,My bulu roma naik non-stop .As u know,i can sense de right,so I call him not to kacau but that fellow keep stand right beside me,damm him.....
After staying there for 1hour,I really out of stress HEHE

25th June 2009

2009-05-24T21:26:00.000+08:00

It has been a week that I did not update my blog.Currently having exam and I am spending 3minutes to update now...

First of all,I thought I did very well in my chemistry paper 1 and i had it many corrects out of 50 questions,buden,when I get back my papers,sad to announce that I score only half,how terrible it is..From joy to sad.What is the best part was she handed the papers before the PA paper and I am absolutely very down to sit on that paper,All my moods gone straight away.IN the end,I ended up a mistake on my graph,sad thing again...

I cried,i bathed in the toilet just to cool myself up...I guess that I am failing my chemistry once again and not passing the paper once in my life except SPM la....

Today story is my sis was fetching me to pasar malam and half way tru,she scared me off.I called her stop and I will be the driver,then when we reached to pasar malam,bought some drinks and back to home coz that pasar malam wasn't that interesting...

ON the way back,I saw this ......

A shooting star,damm lucky...I make a wish that I hope that we will be OK..Will my wish be fulfiled? I really hope that it can be fulfil....

Arigato

back to study le,Ciaoz,
Muet paper tml but studying for Chemsitry instead.

14th May 2009

2009-05-14T18:57:00.000+08:00

Another blink of an eye,we are almost in the middle of 2009.Time passes swiftly....

This few days,I am back to action...

what action?
Erm, my latest ability that is EMO

MId term exam is on next week..And again,I think I have prepare but dunno whether I can score this time..The problem is I do understand but just the formulas that make me crazy.We have maths formula where the trigo owns enough, Chemistry where the organic is superb and Physics which is fantastic....All of thier formulas add together and form 100++ formulas...

Erm,today I saw something which I shouldn't see.If u dun wan to see me,is fine to me and u can directly go straight forward to me.U dun have to hide here and there.And I don't think that it is funny and I am very serious bout it...

I have make alot of new friends from last year till now and I lost 2 of the friends where I put my trust on..One of them is someone who I really dun wan to forget and to be kept in my heart forever and another one was someone who I really really trust and in the end,I was like a foe for him....

What else I can lose now?I dun think God is by my side(sorry not christian) and what I believe in so much is neither happening..All my secondary buddies cannot been seen always,and my stress level has gone beyond the limit..

Haiz,who can I lay my head on?

10th May 2009

2009-05-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

This song was sang by JJ Lin entitled 我还想她.Although I am not truly 100% understand the meaning of this lyrics.I know that the expression when singing this song is the same as I have right now..(PLz dun mind this old song but it really has a good meaning in it especially when I sing it,no doubt)
I can't blame no one but just myself...

The idiot Smith Shim

泪水将我淹没到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情

我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我才终于明白办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

我不爱我不痛我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷

请告诉她我不爱她
笑着难过自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉她我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默代替所有回答

别告诉她我还想她
就让沉默代替所有回答

By the way,today is Mother's Day.Wish everyone has a memorable MOTHER'S DAY....

8th May 2009

2009-05-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

I have do whatever I can to secure her
but,everything seems to be not working

I sat by a tree
and start to think hard
Am I foolish?
Or really in love?

Love is complicated
U might got backstabbed by someone

But when this turn up
It has to be something that I wish not to lose
I shall wait for her to return

I will wait her again if there is fate among us
I really love you from the bottom of my heart

~~Sweet moments are hard to be forgotten~~

5 May 2009

2009-05-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

I have been very lazy to update.Many things to be updated but I didn't..
Just not that free.Too compact ady

Exam is around the corner and I still day dreaming although I have banned myself from DOTA.
I think I have to get rid of my laziness too.
Just too lazy

WHo can help?

Recently,many things happen la
Especially my class....

GOt animal,small gas la,no gas la,too gas la,emo, and bla bla bla...

DUno how to help myself out,just crowded with matters of problem that are 10X times tougher than Additional Mathematics...

She has been a big factor for me to improve myself but since she like that,I felt like I have been abandoned and neglect of encouragement....
Only her voice has the power to move me up but now
I damm Ngong Hem ady....

Why can't she help me up this time....I very tired of being a clown around everyone

Especially when I wear a mask to move around.
Just not myself

27th April 2009

2009-04-27T19:48:00.000+08:00

I have been quite frustrating on what is going on around me.Well,last 2 or 3 weeks,there was a boy came to get a signature from the seniors who were my classmates.He tried hard to get their signature but he failed.So I began to help him out by assisting him in some jokes.Everyone had the laughter including him.Then I spotted out something,his zip had not reached to the junction yet.So,I took everyone attention to look on it.He also laughed with us and zip it back and I thought of another thing which is a big rude la but never thot he will take it so seriously.I said out that his bird bird too big until cant fit the cage.He took a dictionary and hit me.I gave him a lecture and he managed to get the signatures with tears from his eyes.After few days,we met in canteen and we apologized to each other.It was nothing big deal.But then,today...

HIS MOM CAME AND TALKED TO PN.GAN ABOUT THIS CASE,stubborn

a case which has been stopped and now his mother came and give Pn.Gan a DAMM.I duno whether I will survive for tomolo assembly ground or not.

This wasn't the thing I worried most but the biggest problem that I facing now is between me and someone..The longer we took,the deeper the misunderstading go.I duno what to do.It started up when she said that if I was interested in the game she managing,PLz step down and give opportunity to someone else to play.I am curious about the game but never thot of leaving the game.Then,from that day onwards,we have not spoken for a long long time.....

She was the one who was in fault and never apologized to me and waiting for me to talk with her?

Think for a while,am I wrong?
I am still waiting for the answer.
I have been very tolerate with her until my limit has over and over again................
I duno what should I do to correct this situation...
And today,I heard another story,she saying that I am cold-blooded

NOw,I am much more speechless now
Someone has make the situation into a bigger problem

I really dun hope our relationship will collapse just because of this matter.

The face of frustation

Thinking deeply about what has happened

THe sad face of me

26th April 2009

2009-04-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

I am a die heart fan's of Naruto.I have been catching the series since the first episode.Basically,I learn a lot of things from him.From childhood until adulthood,I much like him.People won't respect me and I am playful.
I try quite my very best in order to be the Perfect me.

Naruto Growing stage

Naruto has his best pal which is Sasuke who turned into the dark side trying to get more power when he saw Naruto is much stronger then him.Naruto never give up to bring him back to Konoha City as he believe nothing will change Sasuke mind to be an EVIL...

Serious faces

Naruto was loved by Hinata but Naruto has not notice that yet coz he is blur.I hope the ending where both of them will be together..Hinata is kind,sweet and gorgeous.She always try her best to get attention from Naruto and everytime Naruto get close to her.her face will turn very red and sometimes collapse...

Both Hinata and Naruto sweet moment

When time to get serious,Naruto will try his very best in order to fulfil his task.He will never give up until the very end.He is stubborn sometimes but when time to get very serious,he will have the best solutionm to overcome it....

Serious time

When everything is normal,he will return to Konoha to seek for his love one

Another sweet moment

Naruto has a lot of friends in all over the place he went tru.He always seek light from darkness and bring those evil to the good side..All his friends willing to give him a hand when he needed help.So do my friends

The friends he has

I learn really a lot from Naruto the anime.

I wanted to be as tough as him
Never give up in any situation
Always give his best shot in everything
Never be the weak one
Always overcome his weaknesses
Trying his best to seek his love one

And last but not least
My favourite sentence from him

Once I promise,I never take it back and I will fulfil it
It is a promise of a life time

Well,I hold every of my promises
So,I will quit dota when I reached lvl 16
That is a promise until I finish my STPM....

25th April 2009

2009-04-25T00:53:00.000+08:00

Well we have a lot of hugs and different hugs bring different meaning.For example,the picture below shows a couple hug.Isn't sweet?After a couple hug,I guess many things can be settle down.A hug will relax u and ur mate along...A couple hug doesn't need anyone to talk.A silent hug can bring sweet moment to both parties.

Couple HUg

Brother's HUG

This is a brother hug where we treat each other as a family member.Never betray them or backstab them.I don't think that friendship will fade away although we won't be so close in the future coz we did a lot of stuffs together.What we did?
Well,there are too many to list down but the number one spot is of course the time we had during the Form 5.Too many stories,stocks,activities,raping,talking and much much more that we did together.

Raping Su Loy is our best moment and we won't be sick of raping him and I don't have an answer for u why we raped him so much....

***********************************************************************

Right now,I need a hug.A hug where I can settle down all my problems.I hope I can have couple hug but it is not going to be true.If that person can come and hug me,of coz one sky already lighten up....

A brother hug?

Erm,I don't know whether I can get a brother who can give me that hug because this hug is sensitve.Different ppl,different mood.I want to sit down,have a chat with my brothers and have a cup of tea.

15th April 2009

2009-04-22T22:33:00.001+08:00

To say the truth
I am a very soft-hearted guy
I am someone who cannot hold a hatred to my good fren
I just can't let that person to disappear in my life
Is it good or bad?
OR I just stupid??
I have no idea
Feel like I am so useless right now
I hope that my sincere action will bring some good luck to me
I do hope miracle if it is possible to happen

Tomolo, I will have my Form 5,INtergration exam
Well,it is to revise b4 we start our lesson on intergration
And I am just 35% tru it
Have to work harder

14th April 2009

2009-04-21T19:04:00.000+08:00

Time passes so fast
As I mention b4,another week had passed
Well,right now
I am facing a a major problem which is very disturbing me
For 18 years
I have never been so angry on my friend
and that is someone I quite treasure a lot
If I considered u as my friend,I bet that I respect u
and you should respect me
I trusted you so much and u give me that kind of shyt?

I have been very tolerate to you since the day I met you
I never try to harm you or play a big prank on you

As you see,I don't really like to argue or fight with my friend
I like peace very much
And you keep pushing me to the end of a mountain
Trying to kill me?

I dunno what I did wrongly
I know my slang to speak is rough and like I am not trusted
But,I can tell you that I didnt meant it to be
and my voice is born like that

I am weak but never underestimate me
I might eat u instead
Libra guys are definitely troublesome and deadly
Especially myself
If I can't get the thing I want
I rather to suicide with you where both party injured

I tried to be friendly
acting cool although I am not
Try to be foolish just to make u happy
but,it doesn't satisfy me
COz,you are hiding something from me

Come on
I am easily touched and soft hearted
I am not so cruel
BUt I really got hurt when you said that to me
others is ok but YOU said that to me
just very disappointed on your words

I am too frust
And I really need a break

18th April 2009

2009-04-18T14:50:00.000+08:00

In a blink of an eye,it had reached month of April and the mid term exam is very near and as well as the STPM.
U can feel those tension badly in ur heart.For me,I am still in my imaginary world,still doin nth in my daily life.The time passes so fast and is not reversible.I try to release the stress in sports but my mom just don't agree with mean told me is a waste of time.I don't like to die study coz that is just not my stlye.I prefer to balance up my studies and sports.As my mother don't let me out for sports with my friend,what else I can do besides on9 and gaming with my friends?

The answer is nothing

I don't like to study in hot day nor crowded area.This kind of situation will give u a lots of tension.
why?

I'll explain to u Y.
The hot weather or crowded area has a lot of negative charges and everyday we woke up,we are charged with negative ion.So,when u closer to the positive ions,they will be attracted to u and therefore,U will feel more tension.Once a person who is unable to sleep at night coz of stress or tension,U can try this.

Lay on the floor for a couple of minutes.Our earth is negative ion rich,so they will attract the positive charges from our body to the earth.

12th April 2009

2009-04-12T21:08:00.001+08:00

This week is a bit strange for me
Didnt emo,and keep zat ppl
However,I also duno what am I doing

Whole week did not study at all
just drama-ing
And last Thursday,we went to Alam Shah Forest to attend a Astronomy Day
Where Galileo Galilee anniversary for 400 years
Just wondering almost all the time

Yesterday went to PC Fair to buy ink and mouse
met up with my brothers
walk for a day
then not much happen

Today went to tuition
Is my second class for Chemistry
Ate with my classmates in a shop
POnteng Ching Ming today
coz,study first

Recently,I got a lot of feedback from many ppl
And those are negative feedback
Is it I change or the ppl change?
Boring life
no light is seen

Re-do POST

2009-04-09T21:51:00.000+08:00

This is called 50 first reactions... Type what comes to your mind first whenever you hear these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it!

1. Beer: Yum Sing
2. Food:eat non-stop
3. Relationships: Single
4. Crush: there is someone ..
5. Power Rangers: Tommy
6. Life: there will be good and bad day
7. The President: Jason Ng
8. Yummy: chao HAI
9. Cars: BMW
10. Movie: my movie?
11. Halloween: Frankenstein
12. Sex: Shiock gua,when i try it,I tell u
13. Religion: Chinese
14. Hate: Backstabber
15. Fear: Fearless Ryan
16. Marriage: an unforgettable event
17. Blondes:
18. Slippers: Asadi,PANGKOR TRIP
19. Shoes: My Everlast
20. Asians: I am one of them
21. Past time: dun want to rmb it
22. One night stand: dun wan that gua
23. My cell phone: K750i with 2 years old age
24. Smoke: Marlboro
25. Fantasy: my dream
26. College: none
27. High school Life: Morianz! and Morianz!
28. Pajamas: naked ..
29. Stars: yesterday went to watch them tru telescope,so much cool
30. Center: middle
31. Alcohol: andrew lee
32. The word love: i want one of it
33. Friends: without them,I am dead
34. Money: I want more
35. Heartache: apa ni?
36. Time: running out
37. Divorce: not a happy ending
38. Dogs: HAk gou,WOW,someone leh
39. Undies: ...
40. Parents: love me a lot
41. Babies: 3?
42. Ex:MOrianz!
43. Song: quite song geh
44. Color: blue and red
45. Weddings: most ying
46. Pizza: Hut
47. Hangout: TS ..
48. Rest: Sleep
49. Goal: Celebration ..
50. Inspiration: I will never take back my words

Won't tag anyone ... To SZeTo and Joel,this is the real tag,sorry

5th April 2009

2009-04-08T16:37:00.000+08:00

Today is non other than my grandma burfday.It was her 70th burfday and we celebrated at the restaurant near South City Plaza.That day was raining heavily and everyone got stuck in the heavy traffic jam.When everyone reached,the restaurant was almost fulled and luckily we had booked the tables before we came.Everyone was so excited to have gatherred together

My popo

My little cousins

My uncle and aunt who waited patiently for the cake

the cheese cake

At last,my uncle got a lighter to light up the candle

I wish that my popo cheung meng Bak Sui,sum tai gin hong.All the best POPO

4th April 2009

2009-04-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

TAGGED BY JOEL WONG

This is called 50 first reactions... Type what comes to your mind first whenever you hear these 50 words. Don't think and don't go back and change. Doesn't matter how random just type it!

1.I have a unique nickname which is Smith
2.I like to sing and sing and sing
3.I am using K750i for 2years
4.I sneeze a lot,damm it
5.Joel is my brother forever
6.Yew Son is my another brother forever
7.Sze To is my another another brother forever
8.Wai Kien is my another another another brother forever
9.I like to be sporty
10.I am so called MAN
11.Jersey with the name MAN too
12.I will die without football
13.I will be the wealthy guy in future
14.This number was wore by Alan Smith in Manchester United
15.I am a Manu fans
16.I love my family
17.This number is now wore by Alan Smith in Newcastle
18.I am a die heart fans of Alan Smith
19.I have potential in badminton
20.I have nothing to worry when I am with my buddies
21.When they are in emergency,I would like to be there first
22.I hate to be order around
23.I am a Morianz
24.I am born to be the species where everyone fears
25.I am a good friend
26.I make a trust,I will fulfill it
27.I will sms each and everyday
28.This is my first time to be a captain in a sport house
29.I really want to score well in my exams
30.I would like to stop DOTA now in order to concentrate in my studies
31.when I emo,I show on my face
32.I hate when someone backstab me
33.I don't like to hard girls
34.I would like to grow until 183cm height
35.I like to keep my hair long,but I like short hair as it is easily dry
36.I like to blow water with common sense
37.I am not good in expressing my feelings
38.I am shy guy??(hate to admit it)
39.I love to be with be her
40.I love someone so deeply
41.Too bad,I am not man enough
42.I wanted my family to live in a good condition
43.Seriously,I did not paktoh b4
44.I hate myself
45.I don't like my friends to be sad
46.I hope my friends happy always
47.Once a Morianz,always a Morianz
48.I wish that I can really be with her
49.I want to be a better me
50.Pray for me for a better improvement and I appreciate it,Thx

I would tag

1.Sze To
2.Kai Yunn
3.Marcus
4.Ki Yun
5.Stephy Shim

30th April 2009

2009-03-31T21:30:00.000+08:00

Today,I went up to library to do RM and RP
as we were doing,some juniors approached the girls
they were the IT member from my class
They need their sign
so we had some jokes with them

It turned up to be worst when I had a cold joke on one boy boy
my friends were asking a lot of silly questions
and I spotted that his zip has not reached the station
So I quiet up my frens and tell them to look on it
They laugh a lot
Then my fren told me the bird bird too big le
So,I took his sentence and modify it a bit and tell that boy boy

Hey,ur bird bird too big until Zang bau jor
everyone laugh
then he took a thick dictionary
and knocked on my head
omG
I exploded and gave him a lecture
GOd bless you
HE cried
I told him I wasnt scolding him but teaching him how to have fun with everyone
then,everyone started to pay attention to us
HE told me that he is not crying
then i tell him,A boy will never cry in front of girls
he told me,Yes
However,the tears started to drop
I knew I was wrong at first but dun nid the expression to take control de ma
So let's learn how to

CHILL

30th April 2009

2009-03-30T16:12:00.000+08:00

The word FAILURE is occasionally used by me.
Whatever I do
I will meet with failure

Failure in studies
Failure in relationship
Failure in friendship
Failure in making the wise decision
Failure in archiving something that I need

And today,I was told that I did a big mistake in my MUET exam
where I wrote 660words rather than following the orders which is not more than 200 words
That is the first mistake I ever did in my whole life for English paper

I am so so so so so so so...........
What am I suppose to do?
Well,this time I really pass my papers "with flying colours"

Recently,there was someone who backstabbed me
I was so angry about it
Well,he dunno who he is messing with
I swear to God,I find him,I kill him
HOw dare he did that to me although I treat him as a friend
That is something that a friend that should not do
but then,he just ......
ONe word to describe him,stubborn
He will be definitely DEAD

It is not a very wise decision to mess with me
He will pay for what he have done to me
I swear upon my words

IF he read this,it is too late
No forgiveness
and plz, F**k Off

Sports Day

2009-03-28T21:22:00.000+08:00

Sports Day was over and I won myself 2 medals

A gold for 4 X100m
A silver for long jump

erm,quite proud gua coz this is the first year i participate so many events such as 100m,400m,long jump,4 X100m,tug wall and as the Captain of Foong Wah house.I guess my house obtain either 4th of 5th in 8 houses.Quite disappointed coz my teammates were not active enough to come for Heat's Day to obtain points and the teacher advisor my my house sucks.She dun even has the quality to be the advisor.She is smart enough to switch the events where I corrected and even blank for the important events.

If I have a better teacher advisor,I bet my house can do better.

here 2conversations which sounds idiotic and funny

1st.The house captains went to meet a teacher to get the flag pole because we cant get any pole for our flag.Then I told him

Smith >>"sir,I cant find any pole la"
Sir >> replied "what the hell you all doing.Didnt I told u to find one?What did ur teacher do?Suck dick?

Secod one was the idiotic.

Smith>>cikgu,perempuan kita pasti menang untuk 100m.Mengapa cikgu tak letak nama
Cikgu>> sana blank so I tak letak(if u are smart enough,u will at least put anyone right?)
Smith>> ....
Cikgu>>tak apa la.Ini permainan kalah mati jer,kalah then kalah la.tak apa

( I was like,&*$&^$)(^*&$&^#$)))

Done.These are the pics I took in class

Allyson,Fleming(sportswoman),Phui Moon

Sportswoman award

Medals won by our class

2009-03-27T22:04:00.001+08:00

Remember to turn off all your lights from 8.30pm to 9.30pm.
It's time to do something for Earth.

Are you in?

Stand up and show your appreciation to Earth. Turn off your lights for just one hour.
You can make a difference.

Cheerios.

Tomolo is Sport's Day and I am nervous by now.I want to get Gold medal leh,my first year in participating in so many events...
ARHHH

24th February 2009

2009-03-24T21:56:00.000+08:00

We used to chat or sms a lot last time
But now,something is bothering us
separating us apart
it is just not the way it shud be with
Sad to hear that
when can it be normal back?
I really miss it....

19th March 2009

2009-03-19T22:36:00.000+08:00

Today,after the troublesome Chemistry class,we went to celebrate Kanammal's burfday.We so so worried that she can't be with us to celebrate in TS but in the end,her mom let her off.

So,at first we went to Gasoline.Then,we planned to watch movie.It was so hard to find a movie that suit everyone.No movie to watch so we plan to watch Jin Hutan the movie.Fleming and me went to the queue and at the very last moment,I saw one movie.TAKEN.It caught my attention and written there UK no.1 blockbuster.So, I quickly phoned Pooi Sze,they took such a long time to discuss.Then,I dun care and I bought ticket for that movie without everyone's agreement.We went back Gasoline to eat qucikly....

Kanammal the burfday girl

Chun Thong,Chaz,me closing eye,haiz

me,Phui Moon,Sim Yee

The girls

The gang

the movie

.It was a story of Bryan (Liam Neeson), a former secret agent living in the US, reluctantly lets his 17-year-old daughter Kim (Maggie Grace, "Lost") go on holiday to Paris with a friend. Upon arrival in Paris, the two girls meet a seemingly nice young man who turns out to be a member of an Albanian crime syndicate, promptly kidnapping and forcing them into prostitution. Bryan must rely on his old skills in order to rescue his daughter from the slave trade.

We went in to watch this unknown movie.We wered bored about the movie where we dunno anything bout this movie.But,it was a very very interesting movie,seriously.Watch it.I bet the boys will like it but it is 18SG

17th March 2009

2009-03-18T10:23:00.000+08:00

Scott,a friend of mine from NS,organised a gathering again for KL ppl who went Tawau, Sabah for NS.For many times,gathering was organised but mostly can't be turned up.So this time,most of them can come so it was quite a success.We met at The Garden,and I was to blame to arrange all the events.LAst minute thinking was a rush for me.Plan to drink at Little Taiwan at 3rd floor.We sat inside and waited all the ppl to come.What surprised us was,there were another 2 ppl from Sabah who are currently studying in Sunway,joined us along.Karen,from Sabah told us that she wanted to go "Sushi Gamei"(correct me if wrong) to eat,we decided long enough to leave the table coz we sat there for half an hour waiting ppl without ordering.W bravely stood up and waved bye bye to the waiters,XD

We had an early burfday for Jia Min so we bought a cake for her....

Jia Min,wishing

duno what I ordered

MIxture of wasabi,soya sauce,chilli stuffs

Fleming,Jia Min,Pei Yunn

Pey Yunn snapping pic of the the cake

We had a lots of fun that day,asking many questions about our daily activities.Soon after,we went to watch City of Ember where we dunno what this story was about.We were so blurred in that movie and we were so bored at the starting but then,it became interesting after the giant mouse came.wakaka

Good movie though but there might have so confusion on some scene

Tagging

2009-03-18T00:52:00.000+08:00

TAGGED BY WAI KIEN

001. Real name → Shim Man Jung
002. Nickname(s)→Smith,Shim,Man Jung,Leng zhai,BAstard,fren,etc
003. Zodiac sign → Libra
005. Male or female → male
006. Elementary → Wesley Methodist
007. Middle School →SK(L) Methodist Jln Hang Jebat
008. High School → Methodist Boys' School
009. College School → Methodist Boys' School
010. Hair color → Black.
011. Long or short → Long
012. Loud or Quiet →lol both
013. Sweats or Jeans →Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Phone
015. Health freak → I don't care about my health at times.
016. Drink or Smoke? → NEITHER
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → Sure me
055. Waiting for → future

FUTURE:
058. Want kids?→ yeap
059. Want to get married? → need to ask?
060. Careers in mind → Successive Electronic Engineer

WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes.
070. Shorter or taller? → doesn't really matter
072. Romantic or spontaneous → spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → both
074. Sensitive or loud→ Both
075. Hook-up or relationship →Relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant → hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → none
081. Ran away from home → No.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense → i held both, but not for self defences
083. Killed somebody → NO.
084. Broken someone's heart → dun have gua
085. Been arrested → No
087. Cried when someone died → yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → Yes.
090. Miracles →Yes
091. Love at first sight → Yes
092. Heaven → yes
093. Santa Claus → maybe
o094 Tooth Fairy → nope
95. Kiss on the first date→ definitely

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now →I really hope she is with me now
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → not really
099. Do you believe in God → yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 5 people.

Well,u guys and girls are safe coz u cant copy and paste the questions from my blog,weird..

15th March 2009

2009-03-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

Erm,this is the first ever Sunday we played football at school.Erm,we had used to break the school rules and just played the football with all sort of illegal stuffs on us.We played fiercely and I started as a keeper.My form has drop termendously and the 'Forest King' is getting older and useless.I scored just once.

As usual,I am not always in the mood la coz.....
Even though,I met most of my brothers,it still kept in my heart and I can't do anything.Just my same date,same month,same year BRO who knew merely about it.How am I suppose to start?
I still not very clear about the stuffs she said to me and I don't even want to know what it is.Being cool and avoid everything...

When we were together,I can see glowing around me and I am happy with it
When we apart,the light fades away

Can I do it?
just dunno...
I mentioned that I study hard on Chemistry and I still can't pass it.felt very dissappointed on myself.I must pass this mid term and I will try everything.I very boh song with it...
Pray for me,guys....

9th March 2009

2009-03-09T20:22:00.000+08:00

My sis has nothing to do
and duno which friend of hers taught her to to use photoshop

And......
She created this

Funny?