Recently,many things happen
I wasn't that happy either

I was suffering from a bad dream to another bad dream
I wish so hard for it to end and it lasted for 2months maybe


I tried most of the ways to let go of my bad feelings.What I did?
-I played badminton
-I scold people
-I act very cool
-I do stupid stuffs
-I shout and act like Tau Juan
-I avoid people from coming near to me

See,I am so crazy with the lame things.I went to disturb my classmates and even get scolded.I just need some good scolding that can wake me up

What I face seriously was the friendship matter
I was having a very bad relationship with almost all my close friends in class
Lame huh?
I am almost 19years old and complain bout this thing but I really can't stand it ma.For 2months I have been suffering on this.I really need someone that I trusted to talk with but I dunno what kind of misunderstanding and made us out blind-folded and can't think properly.So I let the wise one to decide what to do.

THE TIME

One second by another second passed and never stop.I worked hard to secured something.Luckily I met someone who willing to listen and help me out.I just keep talking and ask this and that.This person i should call PERSON A who I really need to hug,I meant a good freaking strong hug to this PERSON A.It generates out a weird relationship and I really dunno how to describe it.Erm,I think I should not tell much about it.Let's remain a secret....

Erm,STPM is very near and yet,I am still not very serious on my studies.I really started to study a little by little,10%?Hope that will increase to 87% after I enjoy all my stuffs but time is really not allowing me to do so..

I really hope that I can understand more what Pn.Chan is teaching me and giving more attention to my group as she concentrate a lot on the other group which neglected us....

I hope Mr.Thong will continue his rubbish which I consider very useful for me to fire up my speed.

I hope Ms.Yap will ask me more questions and willing to help me out.

I hope Pn.Mazlini will still sayang us like her own children where we feel very warm and safe..

I hope Pn.Wong allow us more to have grouping so that we can discuss MUET(HAHA)

I do hope that all my friends,families will be very fine

I hope the 3 person that having misunderstanding with me would have been closer because I really miss one of them and the Newcomer will not leave me

Can I get what I wanted that much so that I can be happier?
There will always hope and new things occuring so that U feel new

words from the bottom of my heart

To find someone you love a lot is tough
To get her on you is tough
To show her that you can is tough
To be strong is tough

I watch her closely each and everyday
I took a long glance whenever I can
I do whatever that she is not hurt
And being a clown in front of everyone

What I facing now is
stress,stress,more stress,and even more stress
gossips in class are bored and sometimes not so true
An angel shown up and I wanted to neglect it
I'm just too afraid
Can I be the Devil?

As Choo say,STPM is getting nearer and I have to prepare a lot ady.Starting from syllabus from Form 5,revise it back to get basic and go for Form6 syllabus..

Have to work very hard la to get CPGA of 3.2 above in order to get my science field..Maybe I will not updating my blog that usual and goin for study....

I am goin to write a very long post before i goin for my STPM...

Ciaoz

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
--- Ketiak?joking la...i think it would be her left cheek

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING?
--- so early wake up for tuition class,SIEN ARH!!!

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH?
--- Phui Moon?

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED?
--- I would like to say I NOT Very sure XD

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD?
--- yea~!

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX?
--- yeap, i have a few

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD?
--- YES,is her

8. What does your last text message SAY?
--- So good

9. What are you thinking right NOW?
--- win big money

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW?
--- yea~

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
--- 11+

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
--- forget lo,it is my form1 shirt till now,LOL

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW?
--- yesssss

14. Who was the last person who text YOU?
--- also Phui Moon

15 questions below is none of my business
I just dun wan to tag ppl la
HAHA

I steal a picture from Joel's Blog and what I want to do is...

Nothing la

Just a sweet picture from both of them during the trip to Singapore,Melaka,Kluang

All de best ya!!!!!!

Today is the launching of MBS Idol and also the Chinese society Chinese song contest.I ran a lot because I am the Judge for MBS Idol and also the participant for the Chinese song singing competition.The MBS Idol performance has a few talents found and it will be quite interesting for this time.And once again,I can sing agian in the chinese singing competition because I enter final liao ma.Last year we can't get any trophy is because the Upper 6 has blackmailed the teachers coz only the upper 6 won it and they sang terribly.

Although I managed to enter final,I feel quite moody right now while I am blogging..I feel like everyone is being just themselves and I don't really like it.They like having thier own world and become even more selfish as STPM is coming nearer.Everyone looks so cool just like the end of the world.For what to be so stress?Maybe I am not as clever as u all but I try not to get distracted.

Everyone like the photo that I took with her and what is the thing going on now is everyone thought that we are together but the truth is NONONONO!!!

I still hope that it is truth but the percentage for it to be true is very slight,around 10%.I was told that not to give up that easily but I have already try for 1year plus?somewhere around there but the probability just won't go up....

I had a talk on the NO APOLOGY and they told us something..

If u love someone,U can be patient and wait for her to accept you...

but what if she really no feeling on you and u are being a dummy all this time?This question is running around my brain and I can't get a good solution..

Yesterday,I played a psychology test and I always believe on this because everytime it was 90% accurate.What is the problem I facing now?

Well,I am lack of love..I am those type of ppl who can get energy from being love and even in a strong friendship.The more I am alone,the more I weaker..
Seriously,after thinking it a while,I do felt like I need love.When I get love from her,I do feel that I have more strenght in studying or doing anything and even friends that has always support me..

But now,I lost both precious stuffs that encourage me most..

Can I love you?I really love you,I will say unlimited times eventhough u hate or dunwan to hear about it because I am someone who is serious about love

Recently,not up to mood la coz many things happen and I very not sastify..First of all,report cards will be given out on 11 July but my grade is not good enough,sure that my mom will blow me up.Later on,I dunno why everyone is so so so so cool on me this few days.

Is it I upset u all again?I just have no idea about it.For me,friends play a very important role and it helps me a lot in studies and lots more but again,one by one is having that weird aura on me.Really want to play until that level meh?
Later on,we have a No Apology talks the whole day,teaching us not to have sex b4 marriage....

After that,we have football and basketball tele-match.And both games are against my beloved class,MORI

a bit paiseh de but I still have to play for Clancy coz now is my recent class right?
Although is a bitter win,I still have to do it

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Smith Shim aged 19years old studying in MBSSKL

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